Snapshots - Oberoi Family Edition

2. Are We Ready?

Anika: Main yeh baccha nahi kar sakti.
(I can't have this child.)

Anika got up from the sofa.

Anika: Main kya soch rahi thi? Hum kya soch rahe the? Main...hum...humara baccha...nahi, nahi mera baccha nahi...
(What was I thinking? What were we think? Me...our...our child...no, not my child...)

Shivaay grabbed her shoulders and made her face him.

Shivaay: Anika yeh kya bol rahi ho tum?
(Anika what are you saying?)

Anika: Shivaay main sach bol rahi hoon. Aapne suna nahi jo woh auntyji keh ke gayi? *holds her head* Pata nahi mere dimaag mein kya chal raha tha? Kyoon mujhe laga ki main achhi maa ban sakti hoon? *hit her head* Tel lene gayi thi meri akal!
(Shivaay I'm telling you the truth. Didn't you hear what that lady said? I don't know what was going on in my mind? Why did I think I could be a good mother? I had lost my mind!)

Shivaay: Anika!

Shivaay wrapped Anika in a hug to stop her, which he succeeded in. He made her sit back down.

Shivaay: Pehle shaant ho jao aur phir batao kya hua. Kyoon tumhe lagta hain tum achhi maa nahi ban paogi? Aur tum un aunty ki baat seriously kyoon le rahi ho? Log toh kuch bhi bolenge.
(First of all, calm down and tell me what happened. Why do you think you won't be a good mother? And why are you listening to that lady? People will say anything.)

Anika: Likin woh sahi toh keh rahi thi na. *sighs* Shivaay, aap toh mere baare mein sab jaante hain. Haan, ab mujhe pata hain mere mata-pita kaun they, mera parivaar kaisa tha likin... *voice cracks* likin main badi hui bina maa-baap ke, anath aashram mein. Mujhe... mujhe nahi pata maa-baap kaise hote hain, unka pyaar kaisa hota, unke saaye mein palna ak...akale bade hone se alag kaise hota hain. Aur upar se *sniffles* meri kismat. Jis-jis se pyaar karti hoon, chhod ke chale jaate hain... 
(But she was right. Shivaay, you know everything about me. Yes, now I know who my parents were, what was my family like but... but I grew up without parents, in an orphanage. I...I don't don't know how parents are, how is their love, how is growing up under their wing diff...different than growing up alone. And on top of that, my fate. Whoever I love, leaves...)

Shivaay: *cups her face* Hey hey hey, ab aisa kuch nahi hoga. Tumhara Shivaay tumhe chhod ke kabhi nahi jaayega aur kabhi, kabhi bhi akeli nahi padogi Anika.
(Hey hey hey, it will never happen again. Your Shivaay will never leave you and you will never, ever be left alone.)

Anika: *holds his hand* Jaanti hoon. Likin main kya karoon? Main bahaar se ekdum kadak type ladki rehti hoon li...likin bachpan se darr laga rehta hain koi mujhe door kar dega ya mujhse door kar dega. Darr laga rehta hain ki... main akeli hi reh jaaoongi. Musibat mein padi toh madat karne nahi aayega, mujhe khud hi jhoojhna hoga. Aur agar... agar jaise maine mehsoos kiya hain, waisa mere bacche ko lage... nahi! Shivaay, is khayaal se meri rooh tak kaanp jaati hain. 
(I know. But what do I do? From the outside, I appear as a tough woman bu...but since childhood, I am afraid that someone will take me away or take away from me. I am afraid that... I will be left alone. If I'm in trouble, no one will help, I'll only have to fight that battle. And if...if what I felt like, my child also has to... no! Shivaay, this thought makes my soul tremble.)

Shivaay: Tumhara darr jaayaz hain Anika. Likin jitna tumhe darr hain, usse kayi guna zyaada mujhe tumpar bharosa hain. Tum bahot achhi maa banogi Anika. Main yeh jaanta hoon kyoonki main Sahil ko jaanta hoon. Woh Sahil jise tumne paala hain, sahi-galat ka fark sikhaya hain, life ki seriousness samajhna magar usi mein life enjoy karna sikhaya hain. Tum bahot himmatwali, bahot nek-dil, bahot khuddaar... bahot achhi insaan ho Anika. Mera toh pata nahi par tum...
(Your fear is valid Anika. But I trust you many times more than the fear you feel. You will be a great mother Anika. I know this because I know Sahil. The Sahil you have raise, taught him right from wrong, taught the seriousness of life but enjoy life amidst it. You are a very courageous, very kind-hearted, very honest... a very good person Anika. I don't know about me but you...)