When You Least Expect It

I've hidden this for so long

After my emotional confession to Andrew we've become closer as friends and he's been checking in on me since going back to LA. I have a photo shoot for Teen Vogue which will be their cover for their November issue so it's a big deal and my first cover shoot and feature. We do the photos first and then sit down for the interview

I think we should start off by talking a little fashion first. Your personal style isn't one thing which I think is amazing. So what influences your fashion choices.

That's a really good question. I think clothes say alot about a person I like bright colours but I also like an edge and being feminine and I am quite outgoing but I also keep alot hidden. My mood also influences what I wear if I'm having a tough day I'll wear something comfy and relaxed. I used clothes as a way to hide what was going on underneath them for a really long time and when I stopped doing that I found a style I liked which is a mish mash of everything.

Can you elaborate more on what you mean by hiding behind clothes if your comfortable?

I've hidden this for so long but I recently opened up to someone outside of my family about this and I felt this weight lift and I think talking about this will help with that final step of the healing process I've been going through for the last eight years and maybe help someone who's feeling like I did back then. I developed an eating disorder when I was fifteen which carried on til I was 21 so I was anorexic so the clothes I wore hide the frail crumbling body underneath. I spent months in hospital with a feeding tube because I refused to eat actual food because I was in denial but I almost died and that was my wake up call. I couldn't wear anything skin tight until probably a year before I started filming Alice in Zombieland. I still have these moments of self doubt and anxiety when it comes to the things I wear the outfit I wore on Jimmy Kimmel almost caused a panic attack but I need to push myself past that anxiety so I can heal these internal wounds I have.

I think your incredibly brave for opening up about this and I feel honoured that we're going to be the one's to tell your story. Moving on a little from that but also still talking about it. Everyone wonders if your single or seeing someone and I guess I'm asking is it harder for you to have romantic relationships because of your ED.

I haven't dated anyone since I began recovery because before I was so conscious of my body and how that would look to someone I was involved with and I had these insecurities that I'm still dealing with but I'm also a very private person there's other things that have gone on in my life which I will never talk about publicly because they are such private personal things that happened that need to stay in the past. Trust is also a big thing for me I have to be able to know the person I'm with is there for all the right reasons and they can handle the  days where I almost relapse or I'm having a really bad day and just need someone to hold me while I cry. I have tried dating but I just haven't found that person yet who makes all the doubts I've had disappear and who makes me feel truly beautiful.

I think we all need that person in our lives. You come from a big family and you all seem so close despite the age gaps between you.

We are really close I think we've all had shared experiences and all of us have gone through something together and been there for each other which bonded us as siblings. My little brother Wren was a toddler during my recovery and the others were quite young too but they understood what was happening and the effect it was having on our family. I guess in a way they had to grow up sooner than they should have but Wren is our ray of sunshine he's been through the most out of any of us and he's still this positive bundle of energy and I love him so much. I have this new role I'm gonna be playing in the New Year and I'm so excited to tell him about it and share that experience with him.

That's really adorable. I wanna talk about your friendships you've recently been seen out with Andrew Garfield and I know your close with Charlie Cox who you did Forget Me Not with and your also low-key friends with Chris Evans which I'm extremely jealous of.

I would say Chris is more of an acquaintance we've met like twice I think once at a Patriots game I took my dad to for his birthday which was insane and the second time at an awards show after party like three years ago. Boston people just gravitate towards each other sometimes like I've met Mark Wahlberg and Amy Poehler also insane and I only lived in Boston til I was six and wouldn't consider myself to be from there I grew up in New Orleans and have this weird hybrid Boston Louisiana accent. But back to my friendships I loved working with Charlie he's great and we had to form quite a deep connection whilst filming we were in love and then he forgot everything about our lives and had to relearn it so we learned everything we could about each other and it turned into this friendship we have now which is brother sister vibes. Andrew and I completely met by chance and we've come to realize we're very similar people we share alot of common things and values and we became close very quickly our friendship is something I can't really describe because it's still growing.

Thank you for sitting down with me and for this incredible photo shoot you did and I can't wait to see more from you.