Oddinary// Hyunlix & Minsung FF// Editing

Chapter Twenty Three: Sorry I Like You

I was expectantly waiting for Lix to come and crawl into my bed. Just as he had done every night for the past three months. Even though we had shared that perfect, soul shaking kiss, I didn't want a single thing to change. Not until Lix was ready. I was comfortable with our life the way it was.

Even if the thought of jumping on him gave me something to amuse myself with in the shower every single morning.

"H-Hyung." He murmured into the darkness that laid between us. I quickly checked to make sure I didn't have a boner.

"Come here then." I said as I lifted my blanket, expecting the warmth of his body to join mine any second.

"N-No. I'm gonna sleep here tonight. If that's OK." His voice was unsure and nervous as he uttered the words. I frowned heavily. This wasn't Felix talking. This was fear.

"Lix if this is about earlier, I'm not gonna force you into anything." I explained softly.

"N-No. I just need... I need time Hyunjin." I let my blanket fall and rolled over. He had already claimed six months of space in my head rent free, and three more in my bed. I had watched him fawn over my brother, and tried to be there through every bad trip he had.

Maybe I had been wrong. Maybe he didn't feel the same.

"OK, sleep well. Goodnight." I forced out quietly. I closed my eyes and hugged myself as I moped internally. My heart was hurting and all I really wanted to do was get out of this damn bed and go get him.

"Goodnight." He mumbled. I forced my body to relax. Which was actually pretty difficult. I was more pissed that Leeknow had created this atmosphere. Lix and I had been doing just fine until he made us kiss.

And now he was pulling away from me.

I was stirred when I heard the familiar sound of his whimpering. The sad pathetic whimpering. It always preceeded the screaming.

I rubbed my eyes in the dark and tried to make out where the sound was coming from. Then I remembered he wasn't in my bed.

"Lix, yah Lixy, Lee Felix, Yongbok, Yongbokie, BokBok," I called as I listed off every nickname I could think of. "Felix windows!" He wasn't stirring and I decided I had better wake him.

Before his screaming woke the whole house. I got up and walked across the room to his bed. I gently placed my hand on his shoulder and shook him hard. It was difficult to get him out of these sometimes, and occasionally he would wake up and lash out. I was ready for it though.

"No! Please don't kill me!" He yelled as he woke up and I sat down. His face was damp and he looked like he had seen a ghost.

"Need a hug?" I asked quietly.

"N-No." He tried to sound brave, but he sounded more like a kid who had lost his parents in a store.

"Come here." I held my arms open as an invite to him, as I often did, and he quickly launched himself forward into them. I pulled him into my lap, and he straddled me.

His head rested on my shoulder and he buried his face into the crook of my neck. His warm breath gently spread across my skin, and I wrapped my arms protectively around him.

"Sorry Jin." He murmured quietly.

"This is why I told you to stay in my bed Lix. I don't want you to deal with this on your own. Not when I'm always right here." I scolded him softly. He sighed and I felt his lashes tickling my neck as he blinked away the tears. I rubbed his back gently in circular motions and we sat for awhile.

He needed the comfort, and I needed my Lix.

"Can I sleep in your bed Jinnie?" He asked hoarsely. I smiled and pressed my lips to his cheek.

"Did you really think I was going to let you sleep in yours alone?" I responded with a smile. I carefully carried Lix to my bed like he was the most delicate flower ever. I carefully laid him down on his side of the bed, and climbed in next to him.

He instinctively snuggled into my chest and my arms found their usual place. One around his waist, the other gently resting against his back, so my fingertips could gently play with his hair.

"How you feeling?" I asked him quietly.

"Better now Jinnie. I'm sorry I'm dragging you through this with me." He apologised sadly and my heart hurt for him.

"Lix you aren't dragging me through anything. If I didn't want to be by your side and help you, I wouldn't be." I explained quietly.

"Yeah but why? Why do you want to be by my side? I'm a screwed up kid with bad grades and an attitude problem at best." He mumbled angrily.

"Because you have the the most beautiful soul Lix. Underneath all that trauma, you're so funny that some days I feel like I'm gonna die of laughter. You're so cute, I could just squash your little face." He chuckled slightly which was a joy to my ears.

"Stop it Jinnie. You make it sound like you have a crush." He squeezed me gently and I rolled my eyes. How was he the most oblivious person? For someone who displayed such intelligence at times, he was so dumb it hurt.

"Lix, I'm sorry that I like you. I'm sorry that it doesn't work with your lifestyle and I'm sorry that you can't accept it." I moved my head and pulled his face up so he was looking at me. His mouth was slightly agape and I could see his perfect teeth shining slightly in the gentle moonlight. His eyes were wide with anticipation and confusion.

"Wh-What?" He asked quietly.

"I'm not asking you to like me back Lix, I'm just asking that we stay the same. If this is all we'll ever have, it's enough. I just want to be near you. So please don't rob me of your presence in my bed ever again." His eyes were fixed on mine, and then I saw it. The sign I knew was there.

His eyes darted to my lips and back to my eyes. I slowly ran my tongue over my lips, and his eyes absorbed every single second of it. It was as though he was screwing me with his eyes.

"Jin stop it." He murmured. I could feel his heart racing, it was pounding against my side and I smirked slightly.

"Stop what?" I gently bit my lip and sucked it slightly.

"You know damn well what." He said in his silky smooth deep voice. I stretched slightly and pushed the blanket away from my torso. I was burning up. I rested my hand on my stomach and wondered just how much I could wind Lix up before he snapped.

"I'm not doing anything Lix. I'm laying in bed waiting for you to go to sleep." I stated quietly. I took his hand and gently placed it on my toned abdomen. His fingers began tracing over my skin lightly, exploring every toned muscle.

Then I found his breaking point.

I slid my thumb lightly into the waistband of my underwear and rested my hand against my thigh.

Apparently that was the hottest thing ever to this guy. His lips came crashing into mine and his tongue was in my mouth before I could even protest.

Not that I wanted to ever protest.

"You're gonna suffer for doing this to me Jin." He murmured before straddling me once more.

"Not before I make you suffer for the last three months." I responded. This was the moment I had been waiting for.

The moment Lee Felix came crashing out of the closet and finally gave himself up to me.

"Fuck you Jin." He murmured.

"Patience Lix. We'll get to that."

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HYUNLIX HAS ARRIVED.

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