I'm A Secret

Chapter 18

Ruzena's POV

"I'm your Echo. I'm yours •.~"

I laughed deep inside. For the first time in how many months, natuwa ako genuinely. Just like noong una mo akong kinausap sa CR.

You're annoyingly cute. It's annoying because you're making my heart flutter which is not right. It's wrong.

And then nalaman kong magkasama kayong naninirahan ni Pandora. Mas lalo akong nainis. Alam mong pinapauwi ko na siya noon paman pero pinatira mo pa talaga sa bahay mo.

Malaking gulo kapag nalaman ng family namin ang ginawa mo. Knowing that you're attracted to women.

And I knew I'm wrong. I'm out of line that night. Binigyan ko ng malisya ang ginawa mo. I'm sorry, naisip ko lang ang magagawa nila Lolo kay Pan at sayo pag nalaman nila ang totoo.

Hindi ko pa alam ang katayuan mo sa buhay noon so I'm scared. Baka kung anong gawin ni Lolo sayo.

Kinabukasan dumating ka sa office ko para ibalik ang damit. Nagtalo na naman tayo about Pan. May nasabi na naman akong masakit na salita sayo. But you're still happy and smiling to me. Why?

Why are you so kind?

Habang nasa kotse ang daming tumatakbo sa isip ko. I wanted to say I'm sorry. Hindi lang ako makahanap ng tyempo. But then suddenly. . .

"You should get a life" you said seriously. And I don't like it

"Stop the car"

"Coz mukang tumatakbo nalang yang buhay mo para sa tinatawag mong pamilya. Tell me, may kaibigan kaba? Na try mo na ba magbakasyon? Makipag date? Baka gusto mong palawakin yang cycle mo. Muka kasing Bahay At trabaho lang. And you care too much. You also act like you're tough but the truth i-"

"I sai--"

"What I'm saying is; You should be happy too"

In that moment, I knew you're not gonna be just nothing to my life. And then again, I'm terrified.

I'm scared for myself. For this feeling. Coz I knew it's not gonna end well.

Pinakita mo pa yung pag aalala mo sa pinsan ko. You're too kind. Nakakainis lang.

And then after that nagsimula na tayong mag usap at magkita. Lagi kong hinihintay ang text at tawag mo noon. Pfft I remembered you're teasing me coz hindi pa tapos yung isang ring nasagot ko na. It's embarrassing but yeah I'm waiting.

Minsan nga na gi guilty ako kasi parang ginagawa ko lang na reason si Pandora para makausap at makita kita. But I knew my feelings is not right and I don't want you to notice it. Kaya lagi kitang sinasaway pag tinatawag mo akong My loves. Or if you're flirting with me. But damn, you don't know how happy I am.

Then bigla akong tinawagan ni Pandora, may sasabihin daw siya sakin. Pumunta ako agad not knowing na andon kadin pala. It's just a set up to meet you.

Antok na antok ako non dahil sa trabaho. You noticed it kaya hinayaan mo akong matulog.

"Mas importante ka sakin"

And that is the sweetest I've ever heard in awhile. How dare you.

Hindi dapat ako mahuhulog ng sobra. Hindi pwede.

Pag uwi ng bahay ay galit ni Lolo ang naabutan ko. Alam na nila na alam ko kung asaan si Pan. Marami akong masasakit na salita na narinig kay Lolo.

"Wala ka talagang kwenta! And now you're hiding things from me?!" It hurts.