Desire

Daddy Dearest.

2nd May.

My father had been arrested a few weeks ago, it's now only just been released that it was him.
Reporters have been trying to ask me questions, more shit has got out.
Like that fact that I have a mother. She lives in obx. That she didn't run away.
Most people already knew this because of Topper but now it was in the paper.

Titled: what else is Jeremiah Night lying about?

It's seriously getting boring now, even behind bars my father seems to have a way of screwing my life up.
I'd heard on the radio that he was going to do an interview with press today, he was well known, his and wards company were tied into other big selling companies.
I needed to get to my father before the press do, I need to visit him.

I couldn't go alone.
"Sounds like a good idea- you don't want your Dad lying about other shit, about your mom or you?" Rafe sat across from me as I told him what I was going to do.
That I was going to see my Dad in jail.
"Yeah one problem, I can't go alone" I sigh, I thought I'd be strong enough but I'm not.
My father scared me, I wouldn't ever admit out loud.

"I'll go with you- you know if you want?" He stuttered a little before talking again not giving me time to answer.
"I don't know if your going with Sage or Jeremy? So if you don't want to go with me that's cool" he talked fast, his words almost emerging into one.
"That would be great thanks" I giggle at him and he nods.

"So when do you want to go?" He questioned, we were sat outside in his garden.
The sun was shining.
The weather would start to get worse since summer is pretty much over.
"Tomorrow? If you're free-" I sip on my coffee that he made me.
"What time?"

"One?" I suggest, he nodded in agreement.
He smiles at me and I frown in confusion "what?" I question, he was looking at me with an expression I couldn't read.
"What?" He copied my confused tone and I shake my head.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I raise my brows as I look at him.
"Can I not look at you?" He tilted his head with a smug smirk.
"Not like that you can't" I blinked at him before looking down at my drink.

"Why? Would Jeremy not approve?" He joked and I roll my eyes playfully.
"Probably not" I laugh a little, my eyes never leaving my coffee cup.
"Well tell Jeremy that you were mine first so I can look at you however I want to" his voice was firm yet jokey at the same time, something told me he was serious though .
I glance up meeting his eyes, that's when the doorbell rang.

"Shit- I've got a work meeting, can I meet you after?" His gaze shifted to his watch on his wrist.
"Yeah of course" I get up quickly, he walked me out.
He opened the front door exposing his very posh work buddies.
"Sorry we didn't know you had company" one of them stared down at me. They all wore suits.
"No issue, I'll catch you later Kat" he nodded at me as I walk past the men in the doorway.

The next day. 3rd May.

I hear someone beep there horn outside my house, I look out the window seeing Rafe waiting in his car.
It was 12:30.
I sigh before walking down the stairs locking up after I exit my house.
I turn grinning at him, his eyes narrowed at me as I walk up to his car door.

"Hey" I open the door sliding into the passenger seat.
"Your nervous" he instantly picked up on my body language, no one's ever been that good at that, not with me anyway. It seemed like he always knew what I was thinking or feeling.
"Yeah a little, never been to a prison ya know" I joke before doing up my seat belt.
He shook his head with a humorous smirk "wouldn't recommend the lunches apart from that you'll love it" he pulled off my pathway outside my house, I laugh at his little comment as we race towards the prison.

The truth was I wasn't only anxious to see my Dad, I was anxious because I knew in 12 days I'd have to stand up in court.
Expose myself to Rafe.
I knew that how we were now would be gone.
I valued Rafe, he wasn't only my ex lover but my friend.
The gate buzzed as other prisoners come out to see their visitors, I sat there hands in my lap swaying slightly.
"Your alright" Rafe whispered from next to me, giving me reassurance.