Taming Wild Roses [Chasing Liberty Series #1]

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"No...no...please no."

"Roshan. Hey." nagising ako sa tapik ni Aiden. Pawis na pawis at hinihingal ang aking paghinga.

"Are you okay?" he asked, half naked.

"Just..some bad dream." sabay iwas ko ng tingin.

"Come here." inilapit niya ako sa katawan niya at niyakap. "You scared?"

"Yeah." heck, I am. I dreamt that Kai will get Neytiri away from me.

"Should I sing a song for you?" he chuckled.

I felt guilty.

Should I tell him about Kai?

No. Adien's the father of my child. He is.

But, one side in my brain keeps saying that there's a possibility that Kai is the father of Neytiri.

I can't compare it, my daughter looks like me. Halos walang nakuha sa ama nito. If she's blue eyed, then I would believe him hundred percent, without a doubt. 

But, she isn't. She got all her features from me. And the only thing that can determine the truth is the DNA test.

Should I do it?

How about Aiden? What will he feel about that?

Inako niya lahat ng responsibilidad. He sheltered and fed me for a year. He gave his best to be a good father to Neytiri. Ang dami na niyang isinakripisyo para sa amin.

Then this?

It will hurt him.

I don't wanna hurt him.

"Pwede mong sabihin kung ano ang bumabagabag sayo. I'm here to listen." aniya sa maliit na boses.

"Uhm.."

"You've been bothered by something simula pa noong pag uwi mo galing Okada. What happened?" he asked, ngayon ay naging seryoso ang kanyang tono.

Sasabihin ko ba?

Umiling ako. "I'm fine Aiden. Pagod lang siguro sa pagpipinta at pag aalaga kay Neytiri." pilit akong ngumiti.

"Can't fool me. I know you." he then kissed my forehead. "Tell me when you're ready. Sabi ko naman sayo diba? I'm always here for you."

"I know. Thank you Aiden. Tulog na tayo?"

"Sure, goodnight Roshan. I love you."

"Goodnight." sagot ko. Ever since he admitted that he likes me, palagi na siyang nag I-love-you. I can't answer, cause I don't know if I like him romantically.

Mas lalo lang akong naguluhan noong nakausap ko si Tris.

"You had sex with him, wala ka bang nararamdaman doon?" tanong niya.

"Other than lust?" tanong ko.

"Other than lust."

"Hindi ko talaga alam. Sorry Tris, pati ikaw ay namomroblema dito."

"Hey, it's fine babes. Anything for you diba? So, let's go back to our oplan finding-whether-Roshan-loves-Aiden-or-not." natawa na lang ako sa pinagsasabi niya.

"Of course I love him." ani ko.

"Romantically?....Or..familially?" tanong niyang nagpakunot sa noo ko.

"Familial?"

"Well. You've been deprived of familial love. At nahanap mo iyon sa kanya. He made you feel that you have a family, that's probably why you stayed with him."