Taming Wild Roses [Chasing Liberty Series #1]

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Bumitaw ako sa pagkakahalik namin, hingal na hingal. Agad akong tumayo at lumayo sa kanya.

Umiling ako. "That was.....that was a mistake."

"Roshan...." he said huskily, naroon pa rin ang pungay sa kanyang mata.

"I'm with Aiden, this is fucking wrong! Umalis ka na!" taboy ko sa kanya.

"Roshan, do you even love him?" tanong niya.

"It doesn't matter. Leave!" sigaw ko.

"You're..."

"Don't. I don't wanna hear it. Just please, please leave Kai." sapo ko sa ulo.

"If you love him, you wouldn't let me kiss you."

"Ayoko nga sabing marinig!"

"Assess your heart Roshan, you'll just hurt him kung patuloy mo siyang papaasahin." aniya.

"Wala kang alam!" singhal ko.

"I knew nothing, but I knew this. I knew you love me."

I laughed mockingly. "Where did you get that courage Mr. Cueves? You're nothing but a father to my child. Walang tayo at hindi kita gusto!"

"You're free to leave." dagdag ko.

Tumakbo ako at nagkulong sa kwarto. I didn't bother to see if he leaves or not.

How dare he assume that I love him?

Ang kapal naman ng apog niya.

Lumipas ang ilang araw at palagi akong balisa. I felt like cheating kahit hindi naman kami. I felt disgusted and guilty.

Tuwing nakikita ko si Aiden na nakangiti ay naalala ko ang nangyari sa amin ni Kai. My heart hurts for him.

My heart hurts because I know, I don't love him romantically.

Ayan, I admitted it.

I was scared to, because I should love him by now. Isang taon na rin kaming magkasama. Pero wala talaga, hindi ko maturuan ang puso ko.

In these times that I need friendly advice, hindi ko naman matawagan si Tris. She's busy with her OJT's and other requirements. I know she's already preparing for the bar exam, ayoko naman siyang guluhin dahil alam kong mahalaga iyon sa kanya.

I need to assess this situation myself.

My mom's right. I have never been independent. Throughout my pregnancy, umasa lang ako kay Aiden. Hindi ako nahirapan kasi nandyan naman siya.

And that's why I am so guilty. He gave his all to us, nagkanda kuba kuba siya sa pagtatrabaho para lang masustentuhan kaming dalawa ni Neytiri. He wanted to give me an abundant life, katulad ng buhay ko sa puder ng magulang ko. Na nakukuha at nabibili ko lahat ng gusto ko.

I am guilty because he did everything for us, then Kai happened. He was suddenly left all alone. I know he felt that way.

That's why he acts differently because he's insecure, kasi palagi niyang iniisip na iiwan ko siya. Na kukunin ako ni Kai.

Pero kasi...fuck....

Kai already had me in the first place. He had my heart.

I knew always denied this...but after that kiss, walang araw na hindi ko siya naisip. And when I think of what happened, my heart went astray.

I denied it, I always do. Pero mayroon talagang kakaiba.

The way my heart beats faster when I'm with him. The way I felt comfortable with his presence. The way he easily makes me smile.