'18 months are you serious' my jaw dropped
'mel i'm sorry' he put his head in his hands
i moved his hands from his face as he shook his head
'no touching' a guard shouted from the other side of the room
'i guess it could be worse' i shrugged
'dont' he sighed 'i promised you i'd be there for you'
'i know' i said 'it's shit but what can we do'
'stop saying shit like that mel' he answered 'you're acting like you're fine with it'
'what you want me to sit here and argue with you' i raised my eyebrows
'no i'm just saying you're acting like this is all okay'
'rhys none of this is okay' i snapped 'you're sat in a cell and i'm carrying your child'
'you told me you'd be there for me' i said 'the whole way'
'now look at us, i have to visit you in certain hours in the day'
'how the fuck do you expect me to do this alone' i continued 'what they're gunna be nearly 2 by the time you're out'
'do you know how hard this shits gunna be for me'
i put my head into my arms on the table
'i know baby' he sighed he rubbed his thumb on my arm
'i'm sorry it's not your fault' i looked up at him
'mel i wanna know how you feel' he said
'you might think i'm not here for you but believe me i am' he carried on 'i'd do anything for you mel, fucking anything'
'i'll do anything i can to support you and our baby'
'i know babe' i smiled 'i'm not allowed to kiss you am i'
'nope' he laughed
'oh i have something for you' i slid a burner phone into my hand from my sleeve
i put my hand on top of his and placed it into his hand
'how the fuck did you get that in' he whispered
'i have my ways' i smirked
'sav gave it to me it has his and hunchs numbers in already'
'and i added mine' i said
'you know i love you mel' he smiled 'so much'
'i know' i smiled 'i love you'
'cee wasn't happy when he found out i was pregnant'
'you told him?' he asked
'he'd of found out soon anyway' i said 'called me a sket and kicked off'
'fucking prick' he kissed his teeth
'then fredo nearly started on him for it then dave kicked him out and haven't spoke to him since'
'why was fredo there mel' he rolled his eyes
'dave invited him over that's all rhys'
'well whys he even defending you' he sounded irritated
'babe just leave it i don't know why' i replied 'i don't wanna argue with you now'
'mhm' he mumbled 'u know he likes you mel'
'rhys we're friends okay' i sighed 'i don't tell you who you can be friends with'
'i'm just saying i don't like him' he stated
'i promise you nothing would happen with me and him' i reassured him 'i want you not him'
'i trust you' he said
'good' i replied
'just not him'
'can we not do this' i sighed
'i'm just telling you i don't like him'
'i know' i replied
'but you know mel if it was the other way round you wouldn't let me be friends with a girl like that' he said 'if i'd had a thing with a girl before and stayed friends with her you wouldn't be happy'
i sighed not knowing what to say. i knew he was right
'visit times over' a guard shouted as he opened a gate
'i'll come back soon okay' i stood up
he pulled me into a hug and put his head into my neck
'i love you' he kissed my shoulder
'i love you more' i replied 'call me or text me, anything just let me know you're okay'
'don't worry about me mel' he said 'i'm gunna be fine'
'i know you will' i smiled and kissed him quickly
'herbert move it along' a guard banged the gate
'i love you' i pulled away from the hug
'in a bit babe' he held my hand before walking off
the drive home was sad. i knew it would be hard seeing him but i didn't wanna leave. it was hard the thought of him not being with me throughout my pregnancy but also not being able to see him every day.
'how was it' jada walked into my room
'sad' i sighed
'it'll get easier' she sat down next to me 'you'll get through it'
'i know' i said '18 months he got'
'shit' she replied 'he alright tho?'
'we argued half the fucking time' i said 'he got mad over fredo saying how he has different intentions with me and he doesn't just wanna be my friend'
'i don't see it but i understand where he's coming from'
'i'd be the same if it was him' i said
'yeah but you don't like fredo so what's his problem' jada asked
'me and fredo had a thing' i replied 'when rhys cheated on me fredo was my distraction from it'
'did you fuck' she asked
'alot' i laughed 'i never told rhys much about it because we weren't together it's not his business, but he knows i spent most my time with him'
'hold on digga cheated on you' her eyebrows raised
'yep' i sighed 'kissed another girl when he was out one night. didn't even tell me himself i ended up seeing it on some instagram page'
'and you're back with him' she questioned
'don't give me a lecture about how i'm stupid' i laughed 'yeah it was shit but we got past it'
'but he's getting mad over fredo like he doesn't trust you when he's cheated' she said
'exactly' i replied 'i don't even like fredo but i didn't wanna keep arguing for the whole time i saw him'
rhys
Im sorry for arguing
Its just shit
don't apologise
i do understand where you're coming from
rhys you don't have anything to worry about
