My Abusive Husband [J.J.K x K.N.J x Female Reader FF 18+]

"Im Not Ok"

Hi,
This is your Author-Nim,
I hope you all are well & doing good I guess. I know you all are waiting for my update. But I'm trying to do my best. My board exam is coming near and I've only 2 months. But before that I've to pass in Test exam which will ensure my seat in the board exam. If I fail in Test exam, I'll be doomed forever. As you can see I'm inactive in Wattpad, not only Wattpad but other social media. I'm trying to studying hard, but now these days my parents started to rant on me. And as a Highly Sensitive Person I'm, I feel very pathetic of myself. It's like I don't deserve any of this (which is true tho🙂).

Basically I didn't had any reason to live. You all know that I'm suffering from depression. I even tried to suicide several times. But BTS came to my life & I somehow find a hope, a reason to live. Let's say survive not live. But still I'm tolerating my parents ranting and stuffs..🙃. I know you all are not gonna read this things. Bcz nobody has time to read this but have time to read others stories..(I'm sorry if I sounded rude). I'm saying this here bcz I've no one literally no one to talk. I've no one to share my problems, I've no one whom I can talk about everything that I'm going through. I've no one to hug me, embrace me, give me the warmth, the love that I need, say sweet things near my ear when I cry in their embrace etc etc.....

I don't have any specific friends. I don't have a best friend. People say that mother is the best friend of their children. But to me she is nothing but a mental abuser who said many things to me. She compared me with others, froced me to break my relationship with my boyfriends not once but several times (Yes I had many boyfriends.) & so many things she did. Bcz of this I started to breakdown mentally. Basically I'm alone. I always stay in my room. And barely come out of my room. I don't even eat my meals properly. So call me an introvert. So I came here to talk about it.

Im extremely sorry If I say too much. I know you are gonna feel bored & maybe frustrated after reading this. I'll try my best to update another next week. I hope you'll wait for my update.
Till then bye.

Please take care of yourself both physically & mentally. I love you all from the bottom of my heart no matter what.

Your Depressed Author-Nim,
Mrs.Park