"I love you too. Bye, Mom" I say as I hang up the phone. She's been so worrisome since Keenan disappeared. I understand why, his absence is still very hard to cope with. I just hope he's ok. "Hey" I feel a hand on my shoulder and look up to see Michael "Hi" I reply, wiping light tears from my eyes. I hope he didn't see them, he hates to see me cry and I hate to cry in front of him. "What's wrong Jay?" He asks concerned, he wipes a tear I must have missed. "Nothing." I lie. "Really? You know you can't lie to me..you can't lie period." He says "Now what's wrong?" "It's. It's just one of those days.." I say stifling my tears. I take a deep breath. Michael sits next to me. "I understand." He rest my head on his shoulder and kisses my forehead. That didn't help. I sob uncontrollably and I feel his arms tighten. How does he always know what to do? I lift my head up and wipe my face, it's so embarrassing for him to see me this way. "You wanna talk about it?" Michael asks. I shake my head no. "I'm gonna go take a walk, alone if that's ok.." I say quietly. "Yeah, of course, if that's what you need" I know he didn't want to leave me alone, especially feeling like this. But I needed this time to myself. Maybe the tour will take my mind off this.
1992 (20 years old)
The night before the tour my mother and I stayed at Neverland so Michael and I could leave together. I don't think my mother knew about our relationship but moms always have that intuition. "I promise I'll keep in contact with you Mother." I say slightly annoyed. "I know you will love. I just worry, I just don't want to lose-" "to lose me, I know." I smile, I kiss her on the cheek. "Goodnight mom." I walk back to Michael's room and climb in bed with him, snuggling in his arms. "Your mother OK?" He mumbles. "She's fine, just her same worrisome self." I whisper. He smiles slightly. I turn my body towards him. "Mike, I just want to thank you for everything. You've helped me through so much. It makes me wonder. Who helps you get through those tough times?" He opens his eyes, revealing those big brown eyes, making my heart melt instantly. "No one, honestly. I'm kind of alone. So I just pray." Michael says softly. "Well, you're not alone.. if you ever need to talk.." Michael giggles. "I know Jay. You're here." "We've got a big day tomorrow, and a long year and a half together.. I love you. Go to sleep." He kisses my nose and pulls me closer. Just like a kid with his teddy bear. "I love you too" I smile and drift off to sleep
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