My Silenced Cries

Letting Go

Letting go of you is hard.

Letting go of what we had is even harder.

Letting you walk away is painful.

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Moving on is gonig to take time.

Moving on from you might not even happen.

Moving on from what we had may last forever.

Moving on from losing you will never heal.

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I can accept this is my fault.

All of it.

I know I don't react "correctly"

I know that I am not normal.

I know for a fact I am annoying.

I know you don't want me back.

And I seriously do not blame you.

Not one single bit.

My disorders finally broke us.

Finally ruined us.

Finally made you want to leave.

I know I can't trust anyone with them now.

I know to keep my secrets and I know now to stay closed off and keep the normal act going.

I now understand that people can't juggle this mess I have in my mind.

Maybe someone can, and maybe someone will. 

But it's not you.

You can't do it.

You don't want to.

Everything happens for a reason.

Everyone falls sometimes.

People come and people go.

Nothing lasts forever...

And somedays you will be left alone, you will be stranded and looking for help and you will feel alone. But there's always a rainbow after the storm.

People will pick you up and let you back down.

And you will always have to rebuild your caste after the war.

Love is everything, don't stab it... don't kill it... don't let it come down to leaving.

One day I'll be okay <3

One day I will be picked back up <3

This is just a bump in the road and one day I'll carry on life with someone else <3