you have hurt me for the last time
I feel numb
freezing cold but running a high fever of about 104
calm as can be, I cant even move. But my pulse is racing a thousand miles an hour
collected and frozen
mute and scarred
bleeding and shaky
but... with this...
You cant get me anymore
I am dead...
Dead on the inside which is the worse kind of death
I am shattered
not broken because I was broken before.
But I am now shattered into a million tiny shards.
Hopless to being put back together.
My parents were right.
I am an obessive freak
Because you broke me and all I can think about now is seeing you...
holding you
telling you its ok and begging you to hurt me again
I mean I might as well right?
Your my everything
you still are and you always will be
No matter if you hate me
or I hate you
no matter if I am dead
or you forget about me and move on
no matter what you'll always be apart of my heart
the whole thing pretty much
you hurt me and dont even relize it
I take things to personally and I fall to quickly
I forgive to easy and give way to many hugs
I offer way to much advice
I take things to seriously
and I live with my heart
not my head
so I get hurt to easy
I know that there is no such thing as love
dream come trues
or happy endings
but... I cant help but belive that your the person that proves me wrong
I cant help but believe youll show me my happy ending
my dream come true
and teach me what love is
but I forgot that you're not like that
you never will be
I make you sound like a bitch because for some odd reason I just want you to hate me
I want you to hate me so I dont feel like shit for leaving you
so I cant hurt you or your happiness anymore
you're the reason
I stuck with you all those nights
The reason I'm still breathing
The reason I am who I am today
Why I have what little backbone I have
I still cant be mean but hey, sometimes I can be...
sometimes I can stand up for myself
not a lot but there are times
I still cant believe I hurt you like that...
I still cant believe I said that
that I went all crasy ass bitch on you
when really... I should just be happy for you
but you have no idea the hurt you put me through just with the little things you say
you dont mean to I know you dont
put you do.
I take everything the wrong way and I'm sorry
for hurting you
for screaming
for not being the person you needed
for leaving
and most of all... for even talking to you in the first place cause honestly it would have saved you a lot of pain and hurt that never needed to be caused...
I'm sorry... I really am
believe me or not I am sorry...
and I love you Ivori
I wouldn't say it if I didnt...
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My Silenced Cries
PoetryThis isn't a story, its not a fairy tale, its nothing but what goes through my head and what makes me... me? There is no happy ending, just life's ups and downs. Ranting and venting, things I can't tell people face to face. These are the silenced cr...