My Silenced Cries

And if I die before I wake...

I think there comes a time in everyone's life where they hit the bottom. 

Sometimes we sit in denial with our eyes locked on the sky and we don't realize how low we really are.

         but we are so far down that their isn't much hope left. 

Then you meet that girl or the boy that makes everything so much more brighter. 

And without noticing they bring you higher.

But what you don't understand is that all they really do is bring your closer to the surface of the hole you're stuck in.

And when it comes time for them to leave, you fall right back down. 

         Possibly even lower this time.

I've experienced this many times... 

One too many... 

And now I'm scared. 

I just wanna talk to her, I want her opinions and her voice I wanna know that she is okay and know that she is still mine. 

I want her. 

She knows that. I know that. We all know that. 

We just don't talk. 

That's all we need. I just need to talk to her. 

When I talk to her everything is better. 

I swear she brightens my day. 

She's all I have ever wanted, and she's so close yet so far away. 

We can't it be enough? Why cant I be happy?

Why do I feel like this... like... like I could end it all tonight and not care one single bit. 

No one would care... 

Now I lay me down to sleep,

I pray the Lord my soul to keep,

If I shall die before I wake,

I pray the Lord my soul to take. 

Cause I'm done.

I'm running out of breaths.

And shit... I'm running out of reasons...