It's sad to belong

10

"Hyung? Why are you here?"
Jisoo watch as her hyung approached her. Seokjin entering her room after his soft knocks on the door..

He seated beside her, at the bed where Jisoo were resting and looking at herself in the mirror..

Seokjin stared at her before softly runs his hands on the softness of her hair..
"Hyung? Is there any problem?"

"Ji, baby, have you been well?-
I mean you looked thinner"

" I'm Okay hyung. Please don't worry yourself too much.. By the way, Hyung   can we go to Jeju next week? And will you bring Tae here.. I think it's about time to let my husband know about him?"

Seokjin stared at her.. Tae meeting Jungkook wasn't on plan.. it will make things complicated..

"Jisoo, this not how we planned it, look at you ,you should focus on yourself.. day by day your husband will notice it. don't make it more complicated than its already were"

Jisoo stared at her self in mirror she's been holding since Jin came.. she actually checking herself in the mirror when Jin entered the room.

"I'm getting weaker hyung.. I can't even gave my husband the needs he wants.. on our first night I was so tired that I  have to run on the guest room because he doesn't wanna stop-
From that night I've been dealing with so much chest pains.. sometimes It feels like dying.. I'm afraid hyung..
I'm so selfish! What am I doing to him? -"

"Shhhhhhh! Stop! Too much pain wasn't good for you, stop thinking anything bad-"

"Hyung you will take care of them right? You have already done a lot for me and Tae. I don't know what to do if you're not here-"

"Jisoo stop talking.. please ,come on , let me walk you in the garden"

But Jisoo shakes her head .

"I'm tired hyung, I don't wanna go outside I'm always tired and feels weak after making love with him that night my body collapsed - I always need to give an alibis .. and I know he was getting frustrated about it"

Seokjin doesn't know what to say.. him hearing this to Jisoo feels like hell.. Jisoo suffering.. Jungkook suffering..

"Stop thinking too much Baby, okay if you're tired, then just rest, do you want me to read you stories? "

Jisoo softly shake her head..

"No.. I just want to hear your voice hyung.. it relaxes me .. your soothing voice everytime you sing .. it was so relaxing"

Jin smiled hearing that ..

"Okay princess .. stay here , I'll just get my guitar and your wish is my command"

Jisoo nods watching Jin standing up..

"Can you sing our favorite song hyung?"

Seokjin stops and looked at her.. before smilling and nodding

"Sure"

.......

When Jin returns he already have his guitar.. he played Jisoo's favorite song that he used to play while she was staying at Jin's house in Paris 6 years ago.. Epiphany

So weird,
I for sure loved you so much
Adapted to you with everything, I wanted to live my life for you
But as I keep doing that I just can't bear the storm inside my heart
The real myself inside the smiling mask, I reveal it entirely

Jisoo smiled while watching her hyung singing..she can't help remembering how Jin stood beside her the moment she knows that she's conceiving a baby..
How her hyung flown  from Paris to Seoul right away only to get her and be there for her.. her hyung never leaves her side, even though she's only his half sister. Seokjin loves her dearly, he became a father and a mother to her,giving her everything she wanted-
Jisoo knows how Jin gave everything to her-

"I want this baby hyung, but I can't choose him .. you know how much I've worked hard to get wherever I am right now.. and I can't lose it because of that mistake, how can I even give him a good life if I lose my career? And what will I say if he ask for his father? I only knows his name .. nothing more! How many Jeon Jungkook are there in Seoul?"

I'm the one
I should love in this world
Shining me, precious soul of mine
I finally realized so I love me
Not so perfect but so beautiful
I'm the one I should love

Jin made a decision that time.. that considers what Jisoo wants..
Keeping the baby -
At the same time keeping her career.

"When you gave birth.. I will adopt the baby.. whatever happens after that, Jisoo.. the baby will be mine in the eyes of people.. so you can show him and give him love even the world doesn't know that you're the one who conceived her.. that will solve your problems Ji, no more drama from now on.. and that Jeon Jungkook -
Let me take care of him!"

Jin worked to find the baby's father..

He doesn't actually have any plans about him but he must know him ..
He should know him so well.

Asking his assistant to do the job.. Jin had known every little things about Jeon Jungkook without needing to look at those pictures that the private investigator was giving him, all he need Is,  to know everything about him.. knowing that the guy is actually a good person .. that's when he stop watching after him. At least he knows that the blood running on his nephew is coming from a good person
. That's all he needs to know..

But after Jisoo gave birth to the child , there's been the side effects on her body.. her heart was started to enlarge.. the doctors already advised her that she has that heart failure and it's possible to get even worst when she continues conceiving-

Again Jisoo choose to gave the child a life.. even if it means her life will be in danger..

That's the only decision she made without letting her hyung knows about it..
Jisoo was so sure that if ever Jin knows about that issue, 100% sure Jin would not allow her to conceive the baby.
He will always choose his sister against anything and everything!

When she gave birth..
Jisoo almost died.. that when Jin knew that she's been suffering from a heart failure, her BP reached the highest pressure, and she was declared on 50/50 stage..
She had survived that but the thing is -
Her heart was enlarged..

I'm the one I should love in this world
Shining me, precious soul of mine
I finally realized so I love me
Not so perfect but so beautiful
I'm the one I should love

"Hyung , please let My husband know the truth. That we always had our baby.. will you let him meet his son? I wanna have a complete family before I die hyung-"

"Shut up baby! Don't say that! You won't die ! -"

"Hyung let's just accept it.. I can peacefully rest because I know you will take care of my family.. more than me"

"Shhhhh, go to sleep baby please stop talking.. I promise when you wake up.. there's - Tae beside you mmm?"

Jisoo smiled sweetly and nods before closing her eyes.. that when Jin clasp his mouth stoping himself from crying..

It's getting even harder than they are expecting.