Scared And Scarred

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After lunch, everyone got busy with their stuff. Aunts and grandma were discussing some issues with their company. uncles with dad went to his office. Only God knows where brothers are.

I was sitting in the living room where Arlo was watching some cartoons on the television.
Grandpa joined us and sat next to Arlo. I was quite tense in his presence.

I was devising a plan to get off to my room without drawing any attention to me.

As I was about to get up and leave, an ice-cold voice ordered, "Be seated. Arlo child, enough of watching tv, go and play in the garden.”

”ok Grandpa, sister will you play with me now.”

”of course Arlo, I never break my promise. Let's go”

Not wasting a second, I was ready to dash out not wanting to stay anywhere near the lion- I mean Grandpa.

"Stay Alicia. Arlo your sister will join you later."

God, can't you be on my side for once?

"Sit."

I did what he said. I was shivering thinking about interacting with the lion himself.

"Alicia I don't beat around the bush. I prefer to call a spade a spade.-"

Two idioms in one breath. I smell trouble.

"Not trouble exactly but I do want to talk about something."

Oh o o shoot!!! I said that out loud. God 😭😭 wait is he eyes twinkling? Old lion laughing with his eyes...not possible.

"Y-yes" and this stammering, my best friend never leaves my side.

Stoic expression is back on point.

”Alicia, listen to me carefully. what I am is very important. You are a mafia princess. And not just of any insignificant mafia but the greatest Spanish mafia.

The title of the Princess is something that you got even before your birth. Big titles mean even bigger responsibilities.

So no one will force you to oblige to this title and undertake all the burden, sacrifice and risk that come along with it.

It would be solely your decision. I repeat solely your decision.

If you decide to carry the title further then you gotta pass a test and that definitely would be anything but easy.

And if, if you choose to relinquish this title, then nothing would change drastically for you. You just won't have access to anything related to our mafia business but you still can help in your site's company. The world will know you as the princess of Ortiz's not as the only princess of the greatest Spanish mafia."

"How will I decide this, it is an important decision."

"yes, the decision is very important and very difficult. Think about it with heart your answer is hidden in your beats."

"Issac said mafia men don't have hearts."

"We do have hearts, we just learn how to mute it. We take all decisions from our brains, but a mafia princess knows the right balance between her heart and brain."

Following his advice, I closed my eyes and put my right hand over my heart. I revised what Tito said to me.

A few seconds later when I opened my eyes, surprisingly I was determined. I found my answer in my beats. I knew what my heart wants.

"Tito you said that your heart is on mute, does a mafia princess have the remote to turn its volume up?"

"She should pass the test first."

"Bring it on, Tito."

He just nodded but his eyes were shining. His bright eyes told me that I took the right decision. It felt like I had already passed one test.

Though I won't lie I am nervous about the real test. I hope my family could give me a heads-up.

These days so much has happened in my life that I had so much to think about, now I rarely get any nightmares or panic attacks.

Leaving all the worries behind I went in search of the little munchkin whom I promised to play with.