Scared And Scarred

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Long chapter after a long wait.
Sorry for the slow updates.

After the shocking news, I went back to my room. Leaning at the door, no other than my dearest brother, Martin was standing.

"Xia as you know that I'll be training you for a week so I want you to freshen up, have some rest or whatever you gotta do, then meet me in the gym in 90 minutes."

Not waiting for my reply, he left.

So I entered my room, changed my clothes and had some rest. I was not sleepy but I gotta save all the energy I could, dealing with Martin is tiresome.

It's been an hour and I am too restless to rest. So I wore some workout-suitable clothes and went to the gym.

Surprisingly Martin was already there. He was ruthlessly murdering a punching bag.
I hope he is not imagining my face on it.

I cleared my throat to get his attention.

"you are early"

"y-yes"

"Good, this way we can practice more."

"or we can talk for 30 mins."
This is an easy way to die.

"you don't have enough time to waste"

"So Tintin talking to your brother is now a waste of time."

What- I can't back off now.
Moreover, I'll be spending the majority of my week with him, I have to clear the differences.
It's now or never.
Anyway, I know he can't refuse me when I call him Tintin. I have some tricks up my sleeves.

As foretold, Martin left the poor punching bag that was barely hanging and sat down on the floor.
I sat next to him.

"Do you still resent me?"

"No, and it was never your fault, I was being unreasonable. I am sorry for what you went through because of my stupidity."

"if you don't hate me, then why don't you talk to me or spend time with me like others? Whenever you are around, it seems like you are not being yourself.
Why Tintin?"

"I am not your Tintin Xia, that boy died years ago. I am a psycho. I am ruthless and cold. I have anger issues, Xia, even I don't know what will make me snap. I don't spend time with you because I don't trust myself around you, I never want to hurt you. I don't hate you xia I hate myself. I am protecting you from myself."

Martin had tears spilling from his eyes. I can't bear to see my cold and ruthless brother crying.
I jumped onto his lap and hugged him tightly.

"Martin can I share something with you."

"hmm" he hummed

"When I was living with sir, I didn't know the last time  I slept soundly, sir was always haunting me in my nightmares. They are not that often but I still have nightmares. That day when Arlo said he want to sleep with me, I was so scared. I didn't want to scare him with my nightmare. But that is something I had no control over. But do you know when Arlo cuddled with me, it was the best sleep I had? I often think that if that day, I would have refused Arlo, both of us would have been sad. Arlo wouldn't have the chance to spend time with his sister and due to my unreasonable fear, I would miss out on his cute stories and cuddles."

"but Xia-

"I trust you Tintin so does everybody else. You just have to trust yourself. Do you think if anyone doubted you, you would be here teaching me self defence? Tintin I need you to protect me, not any protection from you. Just wait for 1 week Tintin and I will be trained enough to bring you to your knees"