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I just walked out the bau. Not feeling up for celebration.
Spencer walked out with me to check if I was oke. I convinced him I was and just left.
I got home and took out a razor I didn't want to fight anymore.
I tried today I really tried but I'm just tired.
I drag the razor over me previous cuts, opening them up aswell.
The burning sensation makes me wince with its good.
I need this I deserve this
Once I was done I took a shower. And did the usual clean up.
I went to lay ontop of my bed.
It was only 3pm.
The bau group chat kept going crazy.
So I took a look
Sis😻: so we're do we meet
Jj: why don't we do it al the usual club.
Jj: @ em💘 @ tara @ sis😻 we can go shopping first.
Em 💘: ooo yes I need to get laid.
Papa rossi: yk we are also in the group chat
Sis😻: @ y/n pls join us
Derek: yes y/n give yourself a break. Besides you'll get the chance to meet savannah tonight.
Hotch👀: Jack is with his aunt so I can come aswell. I'd love to meet savannah
Y/n: idk guys. I'd love to meet doctor wonder but idk if I'm feeling up to it. Besides I just remembered I'm getting my motorcycle today
Spence🧠: y/n you don't have to come if your not up to it.
Tara: wait your getting a motorcycle?
Derek: doctor wonder?
Y/n: * respons to tara* I orderd it when eva was still alive she had a motorcycle aswell. I kinda forgot about it but I have to pick it up in an hour.
Sis😻: *response to derek* it's the nickname y/n and I came up for savannah
Y/n: since its such a wonder your settling down with someone
Em 💘: we'd love it if you came along y/n. Your punishing yourself to hard. And besides you don't have to stay all night.
Jj: why don't you meet us, at your favourite shop. Let's say in an hour and a halve so you can get your motorcycle. We will shop for a few hours. Have dinner and then meet at the club at 8.
Em💘: you can decide whether you want to stay the whole night. Or leave after dinner. Its all up to you.
Spence 🧠: no pressure. If its a no its a no
Then why do I feel pressured.
Y/n: fine
I close my phone and stare at the ceiling for a second.
I'm really to drained for this.
I get coffee so I won't fall asleep. And then leave to catch the bus to go and pick up my motorcycle. On my way there I decided to take another pill for my anxiety .
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Fanfiction⚠️tw⚠️ mental health issue's such as sh, depression, Ed and suicide... y/n garcia penelope's sister has been with the bau for 1 year. she's a very private person but now, her mental health caves in after another lose in her life. everyone will see h...
