Scarlett's Soldier

Chapter #22

Chapter #22
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Scarlett’s POV
Devon is now 3 months old and I wake up to the sound of Louri singing something I don't hear that often. I just listen to her singing as I make my way quietly to Devon’s room.
“Your baby blues,
So full of wonder,
your curly cues,
Your contagious smile,
And as I watch,
you start to grow up,
all I can do is hold you tight,
knowing clouds will rage,
and storms will race in,
but you will be safe in my arms,
rains will pour down,
waves will crash around,
but you will be safe in my arms.”
She sings till she sees me. “That was beautiful.” I tell her as she walks to me with a sleeping Devon. “I was awake so I came in here to work on my laptop when he woke up so I just picked him up and started singing.” She rambles. “Did you have another nightmare?” I ask, placing my hand on her cheek. “Yeah, can I tell you about it?” She asks hesitantly. “Of course come on lets sit down.” I say pointing to the two rocking chairs in Devon’s room. “So there was this Lieutenant his name was Henry. We were on a rutine patrol when we were ambushed. We ran inside an abondoned building. Then a granade was thrown into the room we were in I was running towards it to cover it with my body to protect my men but Henry beat me to it. He died the second the grenade exploded under him.” She tells me and I just start balling. “Shit.” She says before putting Devon back in his crib then coming to my side. “I didn’t mean to make you cry.” She says cupping my face in her hands. “Was this before or after I told you I was pregnant?” I ask and her head drops. “It happened a month before I came home.” She tells me and I just stand and walk out because I don’t wan’t to wake Devon she follows behind me as we go to our room. “Close the door please.” I say pissed off and she does. “WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK LOURI!! YOU KNEW YOU HAD A SON ON THE WAY AND A VERY PREGNANT WIFE WAITING FFOR YOU TO COME HOME AND YOU WERE GOING TO THROW YOURSELF ON A FUCKING GRENADE!! WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING!!?” I scream. “I WAS TRYING TO PROTECT MY MEN EVEN IF I HAD TO DIE AND NEVER HAVE THE CHANCE TO MEET MY SON!!” She yells back. “WHAT ABOUT ME HUH?! YOU’RE WILLING TO JUST THROW YOUR LIFE AWAY AND MAKE ME HAVE TO PICK UP THE PIECES AND EXPLAIN TO OUR SON WHY HE NEVER GOT TO MEET HIS MAMA!! DO YOU CARE ABOUT YOUR UNIT MORE THAN US!!?” I scream and she just looks shocked. “ANSWER ME DOES THIS MEAN NOTHING TO YOU WHEN YOUR UNIT IS INVOLVED!!” I yell holding up my left hand pointing to my wedding ring.”HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT!! I WAS WILLING TO DIE SO THAT ALAN DIDN’T GET TO YOU ON THAT BEACH I WAS WILLING TO GIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU!! YOU AND DEVON ALWAYS COME FIRST YOU KNOW THAT HAVE I NOT SHOWN YOU THAT HAVE I NOT SAID IT ENOUGH THAT YOU WOULD THINK SO LITTLE OF ME TO ASK ME THAT!!! I WAS TERRIFIED SCARLETT!! I EVEN SAID OUT LOUD AND I QUOTE “SCARLETT PLEASE FORGIVE ME.” ASK ANYONE IN MY UNIT AND THEY WILL CONFIRM IT!! ALL I SAW WAS YOUR FACE WHEN I CLOSED MY EYES THINKING I HAD LANDED ON THE GRENADE!! I WOULD GIVE UP MY ENTIRE CAREER FOR YOU AT THE DROP OF A HAT IF YOU ASKED ME TO BECAUSE I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN DESCRIBE AND I LOVE OUR SON I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU TWO!! IF YOU REALLY THINK THAT LITTLE OF ME TO THINK THAT I WOULD CHOOSE THEM OVER YOU THEN WHY WOULD I HAVE ASKED YOU TO BE MY WIFE THE DAY YOU SAID YES AND THE DAY DEVON WAS BORN ARE THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!!! I LOVE YOU SCARLETT INGRID JOHANSSON MORE THAN LIFE IT’S SELF I HAVE LOVED YOU SINCE THE DAY WE MET BUT I GUESS I HAVEN’T SHOWN IT ENOUGH HAVE I??!! She screams with tears running down her face before turning around and walking out. “Wait where are you going? Louri?” I ask following her outside to the truck. “I’m going to Chris’s because I apparently am not a good enough wife for you!” She yells angry and hurt. “Louri I didn’t say that please just come back inside.” I beg but she doesn’t listen and gets in her truck and starts driving away. I chase her all the way down the driveway. “LOURI!” I scream but she’s gone. We have never fought before. I go back inside and get Devon and then take him to my car and strap him into his car seat because I am going after Louri. I didn’t mean what I said. I know she loves us. I was scared that the thought of her almost not coming home horrifies me.
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Louri’s POV
“CHRIS OPEN UP IT LOURI AND I REALLY NEED MY BIG BROTHER!” I yell as I bang on the door before I hear footsteps coming towards the door from inside. “Louri is three o’clock in the morning what happened?” He asks with a worried exprestion on his face. “Scarlett and I got into a fight.” I say breaking down in tears as I run into his arms. “It’s ok I’ve got you come on in I’ll make us some coffee.” He says as he guides me inside closing the door behind him. “Ok tell me what happened?” Chris says as he hands me my coffee. “Remember what I told you about happened to Henry?” I ask him since I called him the day it happened and he knows everything even the whole asking Scarlett to forgive me part. “Yes I do is that what your fight was about?” He asks and I nod. “So I had a nightmare so I went to Devons room and after a few minutes of me being there doing some work he woke up so I picked him up and sang to him well Scarlett heard it through the monitor and it woke her up. She asked me if I had another nightmare and I told her the truth then I told her what happened with Henry and the next thing I know she is pissed at me and even asked me if my unit means more to me than her and Devon which is not true and we had a screaming match and I came here because I just couldn’t stay there I feel like she thinks I’m not a good enough wife for her.” I say crying. Then we hear a baby crying and a knock on the door before the door opens and we already know who it is. “Louri Hunny..” She is cut off by Chris. “Scarlett I think it’s best if you leave you’ve done enough damage no wonder your marriage with Ryan failed!” He yell causing tears to run down her face. I'm upset with her but I’m not letting that slide. “CHRIS THAT’S WAY TOO FAR!!” I yell the volume of my voice making him jump. “I’ll leave.” Scarlett says her voice breaking and I follow her. “Baby wait Chris is wrong and out of line. Please Baby don’t leave, we need to talk and we can’t do that when we keep running from each other I’m sorry for leaving and yelling at you don’t leave please.” I beg as we stand in Chris’s drive way Devon still crying. I guide her to the bench that Chris has in his front yard. “That sounds like his hungry cry.” She says to me. “Yeah let me hold him so you can take the carrier off.” I say holding out my arms and she hands him to me so she can get the carrier off so she is able to feed him. “I’m sorry Louri I was scared.” She says as she breastfeeds Devon. “You were scared? Were you scared of me?” I ask backing away slightly and her head snaps up to look at me. “God no I was scared of just the thought of nearly losing you a month before our son was born. I was scared at the thought of having to raise him alone and not being able to wake up every morning safe in your arms because I love you too and I need you.” She rambles as she begins to cry. “I’m sorry I made you feel that way Baby.” I tell her. “And I’m sorry for hurting you by saying those awful things. I think you are an amazing wife and a wonderful mother. I’m sorry for making you feel otherwise. Can we not fight ever again because that was awful?” She says to me. “Agreed no more fighting from now on we need to just sit down and talk through it.” I tell her with a soft smile. “Will you come home?” She asks. “Yes we can ride together and I can come get my truck tomorrow.” I tell her making her smile. “Oh fuck.” She whispers. “What?” I ask. “I didn’t bring the diaper bag so I don’t have a burp cloth.” She tells me. “No problem I just take one off Chris’s nicest towels and you can use that because I am still very angry for what he said to you.” I tell her standing up. “Stay here I’ll be right back. Little Marine take care of Mommy till I get back.” I say placing a kiss on his head before placing one on Scarlett’s lips. “Louri are you ok?” Chris asks worried. “Yes we are fine. Where do you keep you nicest towels?” I ask. “Under the sink in the main bathroom why?” He answers. “Scarlett needs a burp cloth.” I say making my way to the main bathroom. I take the one that looks like it’s the most expensive one he has. “Why are you using my nicest hand towels?” He asked. “Because Chris I don’t think Scarlett or Ma would be happy if I broke your nose even though I think you deserve it for what you said to My wife about what happened between her and Ryan and for your information they got devorced because she loves someone else and guess what I am that someone else.” I say as I walk out the door to Scarlett. “Here you go Baby it’s the nicest one he has.” I say laying it over her shoulder she has her shirt buttoned back up by now. “Thank you Babe and what’s wrong?” She asks noticing my frown at the fact that I can no longer she her bare chest yes I’m dirty minded fuck off. “You buttoned your shirt.” I say with a dramatic pout. “Louri I am litteraly burping our son right now and that’s what you are thinking about?” She says with a chuckle. “To be honest I’m always thinking about them.” I addmit and she just burst out laughing but stops suddenly with her eyes widdening mine do the same. “Did you hear that too?” She asks I can’t seem to find the words so I just nod then we hear it again. “Oh my God Scar that’s the first time he has actually laughed he laughed oh my God!” I yell excited “What’s going on out here I heard yelling Chris says as he comes running out. “Chris he laughed an actual laugh not a gurgle a laugh.” Scarlett tells him excitedly and his face lights up. “That’s amazing.” He says coming over to us but I stand up defensively. “I want to apologize ok I come in peace.” He says I look to Scarlett since it’s her choice and she nods so I sit back down and Scarlett hands me Devon and takes the towel off and sets it down before standing up and slapping Chris across the face hard. “I deserved that.” Chris says, holding his cheek. “Me and Ryan made the mutual decision to get divorced because we didn’t love each other that way. We both were in love with someone else, we just didn’t admit it to ourselves. I have loved your sister ever since I can remember. I just couldn’t admit to myself just how much I love your sister as more than a friend. When she told me that she felt the same the night I admitted my feeling to her was one of the best feelings ever and when she asked me to marry her and to start a family with her there aren’t enough words in all the laguages to describe how happy I was when I saw the nurse hand Devon to her before she made her way to me when he was born. So you don’t get to throw a devorce that has nothing to do with the situation because last time you did LOURI WAS ABOUT TO GIVE HER LIFE TO PROTECT ME AND YOU ALL BECAUSE SHE NEEDED TO CLEAR HER HEAD BECAUSE YOU DECIDED TO THROW MY DEVORCE IN MY FACE AND MAKE HER THINK I WAS STILL MARRIED AND I WATCHED AS THAT LUNATIC STABBED THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND WATCHED HER GET BACK UP GRITTING HER TEETH IN PAIN JUST TO MAKE SURE HE DIDN’T KILL YOU AFTER HE KNOCKED YOU UNCONIOUS AND I WATCHED AS HE BEAT THE LIFE OUT OF HER LITERALLY AND DUNK HER HEAD UNDER THE WATER AND THE SECOND HE THREATENED ME SHE GOT UP AGAIN AND AGAIN TILL THE MP’S GOT THERE SHE TOLD ME GOODBYE AS I WAS SITTING NEXT TO HER BODY THAT WAS SOAKED IN HER OWN BLOOD AS THE EMT’S DID EVERYTHING TO SAVE HER SHE FLATLINED TWICE IN THE AMBULANCE ON THE WAY TO THE HOSPITAL I HAD TO WATCH THAT ALL BECAUSE YOU TOLD HER I WAS MARRIED EVEN THOUGH I WASN’T I WOULDN’T HAVE SLEPT WITH HER IF I WAS STILL MARRIED!!!” Scarlett screams at Chris with tears streaming down her face as she tells him things he didn’t know about due to him being knocked out, and I didn’t know I flatlined in the ambulance. Devon is screaming at this point I’m doing my best to calm him down as tears stream down Chris and I’s faces. When she is done screaming she hears Devon’s cries and turns to him instantly. “Shh it’s ok Sweetheart Mommy didn’t mean to scare you. But remember what Mama said earlier that you are safe in her arms.” Scarlett says as softly as she can referring to the song I sang to him a couple hours ago. “I flatlined twice they never told me.” I say. “I thought they did I’m sorry you had to find out like this I just snapped.” She says putting one hand on my cheek wiping away tears with her thumb. “No I’m not upset about finding out that I flatlined what hurts is knowing you had to see that along with what happened on the beach.” I say. “It was a little over a year ago stop beatting yourself up about it you saved me Louri what I saw yes it was horrifing and heart breaking to watch but I also saw just how strong you are and how far you will go to protect those you love and honestly I’m glad we went to that beach to look for you because if we didn’t I would most likely not be married to the love of my life and I wouldn’t have this beautiful baby boy instead I would have had to burry the love of my life and morn your loss for the rest of my life.” Scarlett says with tears flowing freely down her face. “I love you.” Is all I can think of to say. “I love you too. Let’s go home.” She says and I nod. “Here take him there’s one last thing I have to do.” I say with a smirk picking up the now baby vomit covered towel. “Here’s your towel back.” I say placing the dirty side against his chest before joining Scarlett in the car.

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A/N
Well that was intense. The song mentioned in this chapter is actually one my mom would sing to me when I was young. It's a real song. I recommend you give it a listen. I listen to it everytime I’m anxious or stressed. Anygays see you in the next one.