Lust Actually

Chapter 17

Bago ko man maihakbang yung mga paa ko bigla akong hinatak ni Ashton sa bewang. I can see he's angry from the way he looked at me and his grip's so tight. God! Napikon ko na yata talaga to. Hmp! Eh ano naman?

"Don't you ever dare trying my patience sweetheart. Just don't! You don't know what I'm capable of." Oh.. that damn ego! I just smile back sarcastically and thank God he let go this time but with a warning in his eyes. Okay, I get it. Kahit papanu natakot din naman ako. Hindi na lang ako lumusong sa pool, kumuha ako ng punch at naupo na lang sa tabi ni Ashton. Sinuot ko na lang din yung robe ko dahil baka mag alburuto na sa galit ang isang to. Hindi ko talaga sya maintindihan, bakit ba kasi ang hirap nyang basahin. And I still don't have any idea what kind of relationship we have. Nahihiya din naman akong tanungin kung totoo yung sinabi nya na boyfriend ko siya. Maybe he is and maybe not. Wala naman kasing ligawan na nangyare eh literal na landian lang talaga. Hahaha fvck!

Panaka naka naman akong sumusulyap sa mga nagkakasiyahan na magpipinsan. Nakakainggit lang, bigla ko tuloy namiss yung mga naiwan ko sa probinsya namin. Napahalukipkip ako ng medyo dumampi yung hangin sa balat ko.

"I'm sorry." Medyo nagulat ako sa yakap na yun ni Ashton and to think na nakatingin sa amin yung mga pinsan nya.

"It's alright. No worries", tipid na sagot ko. He kissed me on the cheeks. I just stare at him smiling.

"Hey man! Don't be too cheesy in there. Let Gin enjoy the night. Don't worry we won't bite your girl." Si Dustin... I saw Ashton's jaw clenched. And he said he's not jealous but look at him kulang na lang manapak ng tao. Inayos ko yung noo nya kumunot na sa sobrang gigil yata.

"Don't frown darling. You're not jealous right? Come on.. Just smile." I said whispering at him and give him a peck on his cheek sabay tayo ko.

"Hahaha Dust, don't be too harsh with my boss. We just talked about work."

"Work, my ass... with cuddling and pecking? Hahaha no way." His eyes teasing Ashton and Ashton just smirk.

"Get your ass outta here Dust. I'm not in the mood talking to you." Ang suplado naman, tsk tsk.

"Well, maybe I just get going too. Let's go?" sabat ko. Akma ko na sanang hahawakan yung braso ni Dustin nang bigla akong hinila ni Ashton papunta dun sa mga pinsan nyang babae.

He's not jealous eh? Hmm landi pa more Gin, you might get Ashton admit it hahaha. I can hear Dustin's laughter from our behind and I just smile. I'm actually enjoying it.

"What are you smiling at?! You did enjoy pissing me off don't you?" he said glaring at me.

"I am not. Ang gwapo gwapo talaga ng boyfriend ko", I winked. Hmm boyfriend eh? Ang lakas ng loob kong sabihin yun palibhasa malapit na kami kanila Lorraine. Nabigla ako ng hapitin nya yung bewang ko sabay halik sa pisngi ko. Saka siya bumaling sa mga pinsan nya na ngiting ngiti.

"Kuya Ash..." tili ni Sasha at nagunyapit sa bewang ni Ashton. I can see Ashton's smile is very genuine; he must really this close to his cousins. Lalo tuloy siyang gumuwapo sa paningin ko.

"Hey kiddo. What's with the hearsay that you already had a suitor? Why, I didn't know that?" he said while tapping Sasha's head.

"What? Who told you that? How can I have a suitor when all of you were like a wall towering over me?" nakalabing sabi ni Sasha. Ashton only laughs at the sentiment of her cousin. Ang hot talaga.. Shucks!

"By the way, this is Gin. And I'm expecting you all to be good to her. I'll just be with your Kuya Dustin." Bilin nya.. Gin lang? as in Gin lang talaga? Walang introduction na girlfriend? As if naman.

"We already know Gin Kuya.. Dale already introduced her to us. Andaya mo nga eh imbes na ikaw yung magpakilala sa amin. Anyway, Gin's fine with us so don't worry". Sabat naman ni Shamaine. Tumawa lang siya but he is sorry din naman. Nagpaalam na si Ashton na babalik na sa grupo nila Dustin. Humalik ulit siya sa pisngi ko bago tumayo at naging dahilan ng tilian ng magpipinsang babae. I suddenly blushed with his simple gesture, and parang gusto kong kiligin na gusto kong maihi. Tumango na lang ako sa kanya habang sinusundan siya ng tingin. He's so hot and sexy wearing those broad short and a white cotton shirt I can compare his body type and height to my favorite actor, the late Paul Walker (RIP L ) ...

"By the way Gin, we're too curious about you and Kuya Ash.. What's the score between you two? After 2 years, ngayon lang ulit naming nakita si Kuya na ganun ka possessive sa isang babae." Lorraine or I must say the group's eyeing on me like I can't lie to them.

"Ahm. He is just my boss. Nothing more, nothing less." I said while sipping my Gin and Tonic. It was partly true of course. I can't say he is my boyfriend because he never introduced me as his girlfriend as well.

"Duh? As in yun lang? No way... He is not like that to Janice or in any woman. He don't kiss his secretary in front of us the way he does to you. Hay naku Gin, I believe that Kuya has something on you. I can feel it and please do bear with him". I just smile to Lorraine's words. We are just a lover in bed not the other way around.

"Ahm, can I ask you something?"

"Of course. What is that?"

"What do you mean after 2 years, ngayon lang ulit siya naging possessive? Can you enlighten me please", ayun nasabi ko din. I am so curious about it.

"Aw. Didn't Kuya mention it?" umiling lang ako. Lorraine took a glance at her cousin's, actually, there are 5 of them. "Hmmm, please keep it a secret or better yet don't mention it to him. I know he's going to be mad at me. It's about this bitch girl who left him 2 years ago and I don't know if until now he's been pursuing to find her. We don't know the reason why Trixie left him. Kuya loves that bitch so much eh to the point na nagpropose siya. We really thought matutuloy yung kasal but we found out, at that same day of their wedding Trixie was gone. She only left a note to Kuya and we don't have any idea what was written on it. But you know what? We are really glad that the wedding was off, we don't like Trixie. She's a two-faced and spoiled brat bitch, sorry for the words but she is. She's only nice when Kuya's around.. Too bad lang hindi nakikita ni Kuya yun. That is the reason why Kuya been known as a cold hearted bachelor since then. He has this genuine affection to Trixie." Mahabang kwento ni Lorraine. I suddenly felt my chest tightened to hear those confessions.

Kung sana ako na lang yung Trixie na yun kasi hinding hindi ko siya hihiwalayan. Sayang huli na ako, hinahanap nya pa rin siguro yun. No wonder he does not want marriage because marriage is only meant for Trixie. And no wonder Greg was not happy to know I'm Ash girlfriend, well pretending to be. Damn that woman!

I don't want to ruin their night, kaya nagpaalam na lang ako sa kanila na mauuna na ako. Lorraine was so sorry dahil naikwento nya sa akin and past na daw yun. Sana daw hindi ako magbabago sa Kuya nila because they like me for him and I assure them I won't. Saka na lang nila ako pinayagang umalis. Nagpaalam na din ako sa grupo nila Dustin, wala kasi si Ashton nasa clubhouse lang daw saglit.

After kong magpalit ng pantulog, pinatay ko na yung lamp shade. I suddenly felt tired and weary. My tears drop and I can't help it.

Oh, Ash... I can't help but fall in love with you. You were like a beast that woken up the fearless and boldness in me. Even if I am hurt, I am loving you now... totally and completely.