Lust Actually

Chapter 19

Gin's POV

Ano bang problema ng lalaking to? Sarap ng kutusan eh! Eh ano naman kung may magkagusto sakin? I am not anyone's property so dapat he won't act one. Sorry, nagkamali ako nung sinabi ko na boyfriend ko siya, assuming lang talaga ako. I just thought he was but I was wrong, definitely and precisely wrong. And sorry if I confessed that I love him kasi hindi tama eh. Para lang akong binuhusan ng tubig nung iba ang sinagot nya kanina. God! Nahihibang na po talaga. Please bring the old Izygn Lord please.

I keep quite the entire meeting and just taking down notes for Ashton. He keeps on bugging me, nariyan na hawakan nya yung kamay ko sa ilalim ng mesa or di kaya yung tuhod ko.. Haisst if only you were mine Ash if only.

Natapos ang meeting ng hindi ko na namamalayan. Clifford was asking me out for tonight but Ashton interrupted him and told him we still had a dinner meeting with some business partner and he needed me. He's so rude. I apologetically smiled to Clifford as we headed first.

"The guy was just being nice and you're so rude. You should be thankful and celebrate with him right? I know that his father is one of the influential people and nakuha mo siya as one of the big investor." ang sabi ko habang papunta kami ng parking lot.

"Seriously? Why? Do you like him?" he snapped at me.

"What?? Ano naman ang kinalaman ko sa sinabi ko? I only said what is right, didn't I get a point? And besides my feelings doesn't do anything with it". Irap ko sabay pasok sa sasakyan nya.

"Point taken. But what you feel matter the most. I don't share what is mine and you are mine. Got that?" he glared at me like he wants to strangle my neck. Me? No way! I'm done with his so-called "you're mine" because I'm not. Leche!

"Hah! And I already told you, I am not owned by anyone and will never be. You can have me for as long as you wanted Lorenzo but I can also decide whether or not to stay. So don't flatter yourself too much." before I realized it.. he heavily pressed his foot to the break.. Damn! Too much of my mouth.

"Really huh? .!" bigla akong kinabahan dahil sobra nyang binilisan yung takbo ng kotse. Shit! Shit! Ayaw ko pang mamatay waahh...!

"Dammit, Lorenzo! Can you slow down?! Are you trying to kill yourself? Then go ahead, but spare me.. I don't wanna die just yet!" sigaw ko sa kanya. Bigla nyang kinabig yung manibela ng walang pakundangan buti na lang walang masyadong nagda drive dito. Shit! Lalo ko yatang ginalit... Nangunyapit ako sa braso nya and my tears starting to flow. I am damn scared. Napansin nya yatang sumisinghot ako kaya medyo nag menor na sya pero may konting bilis pa rin ang pagpapatakbo nya.

Hindi kami nagkikibuan pagdating namin sa unit nya. Umalis din sya kaagad ng hindi nagpapaalam. Well fvcked him! I do love him but it doesn't mean I'll be forgiving all the time. Nagkulong na lang ako sa kwarto. Bahala siya!

Kinabukasan, nagising na lang ako na may humahalik sa akin. At sino ba naman ang mangangahas na gawin lagi yun? I did not responded to his kisses and I get up instead. I'm still mad at him. I won't be his play thing anymore.

"Are you still mad? Sorry." He said while hugging me at the back. Sumunod pala ang gago.

"No. I am fine now. Don't be sorry, I also had a fault here. Anyway, I already packed your things. What time are we going back to Manila?" I just asked without looking at him. I don't know why the sudden change of my mood. Hindi naman ako buntis dahil nagpi-pills naman ako. Hmm siguro I've learned how to control my emotions now. And this time, I know how to play the game.

"I can sense you still are. We will not go back not unless you've forgiven me." He kissed my shoulder. Haisst ang kulit lang eh no?

"There's no reason asking for forgiveness Ashton. I didn't see anything wrong okay? We're just taken by our emotions. Everything's fine. Alright? Now let's freshen up para makauwi na tayo." I kissed him on his cheek bago tumalikod.

"Are you sure? How about joining me at the shower sweetheart? That will surely freshen us up." Ngisi nya. Perv! Pero bigla din naman akong na excite. Haisst.. Control Izygn. You need to control it. Nanunuya ko syang nginisihan.

"Hmmm..... Nah." And I rushed into the bathroom. I heard him laugh.

"Andaya mo Ms. Pakipot na sexy." He said behind the door. Damn that tagalog, lalo syang nagiging hot sa pandinig ko. Kinikilig ako, ayieeh! Panu pa kaya kung sabihin nyang "Ms. Pakipot pero mahal na mahal ko?" Baka mauntog ko pa yung ulo ko sa sobrang kilig. Toinks ka talaga Gin! Andami mong alam...

Bugnutin sya habang nagda-drive at sa hindi malamang dahilan. Kanina pa to eh. Teka nga.

"Why are you frowning? You were like that since we checked out. Anything wrong?"

"Nothing." Tipid nyang sagot.

"Hmmm.. alright."sabi ko na lang. Ayaw kong sabayan yung pagiging moody nya. Nakatulugan ko na lang ang byahe and ginising nya na lang ako pagkadating sa apartment ko. Bumaba din sya at dinala yung travelling bag ko hanggang dun sa kwarto ko.

"I'm fine here. You should rest too. Masyado kang exhausted. I'll be in the office early in the morning so I can work with the minutes. Medyo madami -- Hmmmp.." hindi ko na natapos yung sasabihin ko dahil bigla nya na lang akong hinalikan at hiniga sa kama. Hindi na lang din ako tumutol, what for?

Sa bahay na din sya nag-dinner bago sya nagpasyang umuwi na din. Hinatid ko na lang sya sa pintuan ayaw ko ng lumabas, pagod na rin ako sa byahe at mas lalo pa nya akong pinagod sa kamanyakan nya. May balak pa nga syang dun na matutulog pero hindi ako pumayag at naging isyu ulit yun sa kanya. Napailing na lang ako...

"See you tomorrow. Good night". I kissed him on a cheek.

"Alright. You don't want me here. Then, it's a hell night for me", maktol pa nya.

"Heh! You won't let me sleep if ditto ka matutulog. Kaya ba-bye na." irap ko. Totoo naman eh... Naging libangan na naming dalawa yung sex.

Tumawa na lang sya and kissed me goodnight.

"Alright... Goodnight sweetheart. See you tomorrow... And about Shaw, don't dare fvking smile when I'm around."

"And what if you're not around? Am I allowed smiling him back?" birit ko...

"Hell no! Don't..--", I smack him on his lips at tinapik tapik yung pisngi nya, nakakatuwa talaga tong inisin.

"I won't. Sige na... Don't drive too fast.. Bye." Hindi ko na sya pinayagan pang magsalita dahil sinara ko na ang pintuan.. Hindi ko kakayanin kung sya ang unang mang iiwan sa ere. I still need a man who's going to adore and love me not just wanting my body. Hindi ako pinalaking ganito, premarital sex was a big no no for me... before. I heaved a sigh and allowed myself to sleep.