(A/n I changed it so chan and minho were their current aged , 24 and 25 bc I can and I realised ain't no way they have a degree in psychology at the ages of 19 and 20💀)
Bangchans pov
Finnaly, we had more information about both hyunjin and the new kid, felix.
We re read the emails a million times over to try and get a basis of what was going on and what they needed
Hwang hyunjin
• suffers with psychosis and PTSD
-panic attacks
-hallucinations
-nightmares
-social anxiety
• childhood trauma
-raised in religious household
-verbally abused
---fear of being yelled at
• suffers from depression
• meds are to be taken atleast six hours apart and twice a day
Lee felix
•suffers crippling anxiety, separation anxiety and dependant personality disorder
-fear of being alone
-sensative to criticism
-low self esteem
•sevre childhood trauma
-lab experiment
-abandonned (2)
•suffers depression
•eating disorder
•childhood trauma
•meds are to be taken one pill a day
" jesus chan " minho sighed " are you sure we can do this?"
I put my hand over the one he had on my shoulder
" I'm pretty sure " I nodded "dont worry, we've got this"
" why does abandoned have a 2 next to it?" He furrowed his brows
" not sure, I'm sure we will find out soon enough though. All I know is , hes going to depend on someone in this household. Probably us as we are now his guardians but he might become attached to someone more his age" I hinted to hyunjin who was eating his breakfast at the table
" you're right " he nodded then leant his chin on top of my head , reading the fact files all over again "we can do this"
Minho had always been more anxious than me and always needed re assurance, but I was always here for him
" minho" hyunjin shyly walked towards us
" yes hyunjin?" He replied
" I had another panic attack last night because of a nightmare" he confessed " I dont want to be alone right now "
" then you can hang around us for a bit, wanna talk about the nightmare?" Min put an arm out allowing the taller to hesitantly walk into a hug
" mum and dad said I shouldn't talk about it, its annoying " hyunjin replied
Minho looked my way, giving me a look that told me he was gonna have to leave and talk to him I nodded in response
" it's not annoying, c'mon let's sit down on the couch. Then you can tell me all about it and I can maybe help?" He hummed, the younger nodded and gripped minhos hand as he lead him to the couch
Those two were getting closer by the minute and it was nice to watch hyunjin breaking down his walls and trusting us
Minhos pov
I sat us both down, I faced him as he fumbled with his fingers anxiously "you dont have to rush into telling me" I held his forearm gently " take your time, I'm in no rush "
He nodded " well..." he started after a minute or so "I have psychosis, you know that, and...uhm.... it's weird. I always feel like I'm being watched even when I'm not. Like the eyes in paintings I make ...they move. And its getting to the point where I cant tell what's real and fake anymore. And in my nightmares it often starts normal then as time goes on everyone around me has these big...evil eyes that just stare me down as I walk and I cant cope with it so much i wake up already mid panic attack."
" so this is all related to being watched?" I asked, he nodded once more " have you done anything in your life that would lead anyone to want to stare at you? Like anything particularly bad?"
" no, but.... it all started once my parents started to pick apart everything about me. From my sexuality to my appearance to the way I dressed. Everything." He explained
" would you mind elaborating?" I asked
" I don't mind" he replied " like everyday I would wake up and they'd have something to say and they wouldn't stop. I'd have a day full of 'your lips are to big', 'why do you grow your hair long? Are you a fag?', 'dress more like a man', 'makeup? Really? It makes you more ugly than you were before' , 'why cant you just be straight?' , 'you're a fucking disappointment'" I noticed his eyes welling with tears
" you dont have to keep going if you don't want to" I held his hand reassuringly
" minho" he mumbled
" yes?"
" can I have a hug?" He asked, I nodded happily
I opened my arms , he crawled into them and hugged me tightly "thank you for getting me away from them "
" of course " I rubbed his back in soothing circles " if ever you need to talk I'm here for you, its my job"
" I know" he sniffled then laughed slightly " it's weird because you're only like seven years older than me but so far you've acted like the mum I wish I could have"
I felt my heart race at that information, me? A mother figure?. Thats my dream "its mot weird , its perfectly fine. This might be a strange dynamic but as you know we have a few other kids coming along. And soon enough this will be a family, a weird family but a family "
" that sounds nice" he hummed
" have you taken your meds yet?" I asked , he nodded once again "good "
We stayed like this for a bit, I'm pretty sure I heard snoring aswell which led me to believe he had fallen asleep. So now I could just think about the situation at hand how we could help and how he sees me as the mother he wishes he could have.
