Jeongins pov
They were all so happy, so handsome, so perfect. Sure they were all asleep right now but I couldn't stop thinking about it.
I didn't have a slim figure like hyunjin or seungmin
I didn't have a small waist like jisung and felix
I wasnt buff like changbin minho or bangchan.
I'm just me
Me is boring.
I'm ugly, I'm stupid, I'm everything that could possibly go wrong in a person. I sat in the dark , the only light being my phone torch, as I pulled my knees up to my face and burrowed it into them.
" why cant I be handsome like the others?" I sobbed " aunt uncle and everyone was right. I'm ugly, my mouth makes me look like a monster, I'm so pointless. What's the point of being alive if I'm not attractive? No one will ever love me romantically if I'm not attractive"
Why do I am so high when it comes to looks? I know I'm never going to get what I want.
I cant be beautiful or handsome or cute or hot.
I'm just
Ugly
" you're so stupid! Why cant you just kill yourself. How am I so bad at everything including dying? What th-"
I was cut off by a loud thud which was followed by a scream
What the fuck?
Changbins pov
I dropped my blade at the sudden noise , blood splattering from the metal and onto the bed sheets. Some droplets falling from my arm as I jumped up to check what was happening.
I ran to the kitchen, soon hearing footsteps behind me
I felt my stomach drop all the way to my fucking knees at the sight infront of me
Jisungs laid on the floor, a pill bottle in hand that read codeine. He had clearly swallowed quite a few as the pot was nearby empty and by the looks of it he had snorted some to
" i-i didn't do it " he shook his head " no I didnt d-do it not again" he shook his head vigorously before covering his ears dropping the bottle completely "no no no no. You said you would stop what's wrong with you?" He was causing himself to hyperventalate " SHUT UP ITS SO LOUD AND SO BRIGHT " his frustrated yell causing me to jump
Soon the others joined me " i-i dont know what to do" I looked towards seungmin
" us either. MOM DAD HURRY UP ITS AN EMERGENCY " he screamed " oh my God. What is going on...what's up with your arms?"
" oh this? Nothing just....yeah,nothing " I pulled my sleeves down further, hoping the blood wouldn't seep through my hoody
Minho and chan were thankfully here within a couple of seconds , slowly but surely making their way to the boy who was now giggling through his hyperventilating
" no! NO" his eyes widened as they stepped closer " give me a minute!" He snatched the pill bottle and poured the rest of the contents down his throat making minho visibly panic "SEE I DID IT I ATE THEM ALL DONT HURT ME!" chan slowly came closer " DONT , PLEASE!"
" squirrel, we aren't going to hurt you. We are going to help you " chan spoke soothingly "do you trust us?" Jisung reluctantly nodded, both of them walked towards him and gently took the empty bottle from his hand to read the label
" shit" minhos eyes widened upon reading the label
Suddenly jisung began to struggle breathing
" chan, we need to take him to the hospital " minhos eyes looked watery as if he could cry "fuck, not even a day in and I've already failed this kid."
" hey, calm down " chan hugged him " lets just get him to the hospital, you guys can either go to bed or wait for news about jisung in here"
" I'm gonna wait" jeongin sat down on the couch " who else?"
" I'll go to the bathroom then sure, I'll wait " I nodded, using the bathroom as an exuse to clean my cuts up and bandage them
" okay kids " minho went around and pecked the tops of our heads "we'll be back soon , hopefully, if not I'll text you guys about the details ."
Chan was carrying jisung bridal style as they exited the house and jumped into the car.
Before anyone could start talking I darted to the bathroom, preying that I wouldn't have to through away this jumper and that no blood had gotten onto it.
