Chans pov
Minho had told me to check in on felix , he had left the group and min was too focused on making sure none of the kids did anything dumb and hurt themselves.
I knocked on his door " come in" he said
I opened it and came in, sitting beside him on his ready made bed " how you feeling sunshine?" I caressed the back of his head
" not great" he admitted, he sounded more down than usual and less happy
" what's wrong?" I played with his blonde hair
" just...thinking " he hummed "about how sad my childhood was"
" do you want to elaborate? If you're comfortable with that of course?" I asked gently
" well....when I was really little....I would go to bed crying because I felt unloved, everytime I would expect my parents to come through...but....they didnt so I would just pass out from hyperventilating and crying. And now its just like, I was right...they didn't love me. At all" he looked down
" my baby..." I said under my breath " I'm so sorry, you didn't deserve to go through that" I scooped him up into my lap allowing him to hug me as closely as he wanted
" I haven't been eating properly..." he admitted " I'm sorry, I want to get better. I really really do , dad! But.....why I don't know....its so hard..." he sniffled
" dont apologise sunshine" I rocked him slightly side to side " its okay, I know its hard. But that's why me and your mom are here, you can tell us when things are bothering you like this. Dont let it get to the point where you arent eating"
" I know...that's why I left though, the smell of the food was making me hungry and part of me wants to throw up at the idea of eating , I'm sorry" he apologized once more
" sunshine, theres no reason to apologise. It's okay, I understand what you're going through is tough and I'm not going to get angry over it. But I can try and persuade you to talk to us more" I hummed " is their anything else on that little mind of yours?"
" mr.son..." he said, I sighed "changbin told me hes been transphobic and he made fun of innie and binnie for their self harm scars..."
" that man" I felt myself getting angry but took a deep breath to calm down " anything else hes done?"
" he called seungmins .... issues, irrational and that he should just take being yelled at like the rest of us. Aparently" he continued "oh, and was taking the piss out of sungie for the overdose situation"
" that's it. I'm getting him fired. Dont worry, you don't have to worry about him for much longer" I re assured
" I always think I've dealt with it......all the childhood trauma...then it keeps me up at night." He said softly " seungmin was crying all last night and the night before...I'm worried about him."
" oh" I nodded " I'll talk with him a little later, okay?"
" mhm....dad...why do my parents hate me, why did they abandon me.....everyone else in this house atleast lived with their parents or some family " he looked up at me with desperate eyes " am I that bad?"
" no, sunshine, you're the best. They just....didnt deserve you. And if it helps....minhos parents left him, I'm not the best at understanding how that feels so if you ever have anything going on related to that and you want to talk to someone. Minhos the best bet" I spoke softly
" why did they leave him?" He asked
" because of me, because he was dating me. They were and probably still are homophobic " I explained, he nodded
" I hate homophobes" he spat spitefully , I agreed in silence
" are you up to try and eat something?" I look down at him, he hesitantly nodded " okay, lets get you out of here and to the kitchen. Yeah?"
He slowly got up and out of my lap, I quickly followed and took his hand. Leading him downstairs to the family
