Bangchans pov
I read through their files for any hints on how we could help them step by step , they were all complex and different and had many reasons as to why they are the way they are now. But when you clump it all together it's quite the list.
Hwang hyunjin
• suffers with psychosis and PTSD
-panic attacks
-hallucinations
-nightmares
-social anxiety
• childhood trauma
-raised in religious household
-verbally abused
---fear of being yelled at
• suffers from depression
• meds are to be taken atleast six hours apart and twice a day
Lee felix
•suffers crippling anxiety, separation anxiety and dependant personality disorder
-fear of being alone
-sensative to criticism
-low self esteem
•sevre childhood trauma
-lab experiment
-abandonned (2)
•suffers depression
•eating disorder
•childhood trauma
•meds are to be taken one pill a day
Seo changbin
•childhood trauma
-death of parents at age 13
•fear of fire
•suffers depression anxiety PTSD and frequent panic attacks
-nightmares
-insomnia
-self harm
•anxiety meds are to be taken two at a time at 9am daily
•insomnia meds are to be taken one a day an hour before sleeping
Yang jeongin
•suffers severe depression
-attempted suicide(11)
-self harm
-panic attacks
•childhood trauma
-verbally and physically abused by aunt and uncle
-never knew parents
•meds are to be taken twice a day atleast six hours apart
Han jisung
•suffers anxiety and depression
-panic attacks
-insomnia
-social anxiety
•childhood trauma
- physically abused
-grew up with single mom
-raped
-addiction
-locked away
---fear of being alone
-----paranoid personality disorder
• DO NOT EXPOSE TO ANY KIND OF DRUG INCLUDING MEDICATION UNLESS MEDICATION IS PRESCRIBED
Seungmin Kim
• antisocial personality disorder
• anxiety
-abuse victim
--physical abuse
---mental abuse
----alcholic parents
-----agressive/violent
---rude outbursts
• acted in criminal activities
-arson
--vandilism
---breaking and entering
----form of escapism???
• 2 pills a day.
Me and minho were snuggled up together in bed as we read, minho let out a huge groan
"I don't known what to do...I wish their minds were like a vacation and not like this"
"Me too..." I sighed, then paused "vacation...you might be onto something there"
Minho looked up at me "am I?"
"Yeah! They never get a break here...so why don't we take them somewhere completely different where they can relax and un wind for as long as they feel necessary!" I smiled, minhos face lit up
"That sounds perfect! But where? And how are we gonna eat Hyunjin to stop whining over missing kai?" He chuckled
"Bring kai with us...and...let's go somewhere...beautiful...I'm thinking...Maldives?" I tilted my head, he nodded
"Last time we were there it was so nice" minho kissed me softly "i think they'll enjoy it, especially felix- korea was his only holiday and he got abandoned, so we should be able to show him what a real holiday is like..."
"Mhm, I think so too, can you book it while I go check their rooms to make sure they're not doing anything dangerous my love?" I asked and brushed his hair out of his forehead so I could kiss it
"Yeah, of course. Go check"
I smiled and exited the room, going into each room one by one until I made it to jeongins "Hey there little man, what are you doing still up, huh?"
I wandered in and sat on his bed, he payed attention to his phone, I sighed and stroked his hair
"Hey, what's with the silent treatment?" I hummed , he stayed quiet. Eyes still glazing over tiktok "Baby bread..." I poked his cheek "What's wrong?"
"You never told us what happened to Seungmin-shii..."
"Honey..." I sighed and stroked his forehead "some things...we can't talk about, because its private"
"Cut the bullshit dad I know you're not telling us cus we've 'already got enough on our plates' but I don't give a shit. I'm more worried now because I don't know." He said bluntly , I paused
"Alright...seungmin over dosed on Paracetamol, and they had to be in hospital over night" I sighed
"They...what? Why?!" He shot up
"Im not completely sure, but they said, the atmosphere in the house was tense and they felt like everyone needed the next bad thing to happen and everyone wanted it to happen to them" i explained "were helping helping as best as we can"
Jeongin groaned "why? Why..."
"Why what?"
"Is it our fault they did it? Since..we made them feel tense?" He looked frightened
"No, no , it's not your fault...take a deep breath and wipe those pretty eyes, Seungmin did it of their own accord because they felt they needed something bad to happen to ease the tension in the house. In no way does that make it your fault baby bread" I hugged him close to me, he hugged back gripping my shirt and taking deep breaths
"Are you gonna tell the others?"
"In the morning"
"Okay.."
We fell into silence, I simply held my youngest as he took deep breaths and grabbed onto me as if his life depended on it. It was a nice place to be
Just helping and holding one of the most precious beings in the entire world to me, it was blissful despite all the stress the conversation prior had produced. I guess it's blissful to me because my boy trusts me enough to talk to me
I'm so happy to be a father
