Breaking Point

Well first try... then see

I started to drive against the railing and everything seemed to get slowed down and it seemed as if time itself stopped for a moment. The people behind me started screaming but that was not everything, I head the heroes scream NOOOO. Nothing could help them and screaming no was definitely not helping at all. Well this was what I chose to do anyway so no one could actually tell me otherwise at all. Not as if anyone could change anything.

From one side of my eye corner I could see Hawks. He was back at his knees and flying towards me again. His face seemed to be a bit in shock. Meanwhile I was just smiling at everything. Finally I could rest and forget everything about this damn world. Nothing matters and I knew it was messed up but I was really looking forward to it. 

Me: See ya bitches in hell!

The last note that I would leave behind was nothing but a curse to everyone. I wished the heroes to rot in hell, I wanted to haunt the LOV and I wanted for everything to burn to ashes right now. It felt as if was somewhat deservingly done at the moment. There didn't had to be a special reason at all. I just wanted people to experience the pain that I was feeling as well.

HAH...

Finally.

Who would have thought that I would see something like this... and their faces!

Gosh... this makes me seem like the devil.... not as if I am not the bad guy here...

Oh whelp! 

Never again!

Now I can just rest in peace or should I say pieces since this will kill me for sure?

Are there even animals that could snack on me?

Maybe the fishies will like my flesh.

At least then my death is not completly meaningless.

Funny how I was starting to think about the fishes in the river and perhapse even a crocodile which was completly nonsense but it made me feel more and more calm for now. I should be terrified seeing how high the bridge was build and I should be screaming for my life when we passed the point of no return but I wasn't doing anything like that at all. 

I was smiling.

I was calm.

It was as if I was about to go to sleep and knew that there was pain awaiting me but it was just for a short time... alright maybe longer since drowning was definitely painful. Just knowing it should scare me but there was nothing. Something was definitely wrong with me at this point. Should I care? Probably but I wasn't.

The truck passed the rainling and I could see some wood around the truck which broke. The snapping sound made me curse a bit more but nothing too bad. I knew that Kamui Wood couldn't stop a truck from falling. Not as heavy as this one. Nothing could stop it except Mt. Lady perhapse but I haven't seen her for now at all.

Better not think about posibilities that could safe me.

I don't want to jinx myself after all.

Heroes were one thing and some should be able to safe me and the rest but it was too late to try and safe a villain who had given up on everything. If anything, they should be happy that I was actually not blowing something up including myself but was doing something this stupid. Whelp... I didn't wanted to do this too.... I didn't wanted to be here. ... I haven't asked for something like this at all!

If anyone would have asked me about what I wanted to do... then I guess I would have said nothing. Perhapse it would even have been better if something like me was never born. I hated it. I always hated my life. Nothing was actually fair and I hated it more and more. Besides the more I knew about other peoples lives, the more I was despising everything. 

I could have had a normal life!

I could have lived in a warm home!

I could have had a loving home too.

I could have had a warm meal per day and I could have never experienced starvation or being homeless....

Life was not fair... and I wanted to screw life soo badly by now.

It chose to fuck around with me for no goddamn reasons.

I was just tired of it.... I don't wanted to go on with all this.

It hurt!

It was suffocaiting me and sometimes I was just...I just... I couldn't help but think if things would be different and then it was making me feel soo sad that I was sometimes even crying myself to sleep.... of course I needed to hide this from everyone since if anyone would have known about it... I would have been certainly beat up that I would wish I would be dead....