Breaking Point

A park... and some stories...

He got snacks and then we decided to get on and walk through a park. No one was really here which made nature pop out even more. I still could remember how many times I played here with Kacchan and how many times I was beaten up. Parks were never really something I liked because I had have to hide soo many times. 

Soon he offered me a place to actually sit down and enjoy the scene in front of us. It was an epty playground but between us was a field of flowers and it was surrounding the park. There were a couple of paths going through that field. Each one of them had a bench and each one was going around the center, the playgroud. It really looked beautiful.

Eraserhead: Here, take it and enjoy.

Me: Thanks.

The Cinnamon roll smelled really good a lot like cinnamon and a bit vanilla. Somehow it really smelled nice and when I bit inside, I couldn't stop smiling. This definitely did taste differently and I couldn't understand the sweetness.

Eraserhead: Good?

Me: MH!

Seeing how I was enjoying it, I could hear the small popping sound of the box where the Tiramisu is insde and the hero soon joined me in silence as we were eating our sweets. It all seemed perfect until the hero started to talk. 

Eraserhead: What's on your mind?

Me: Nothing.

Eraserhead: You stopped eating, it can't be nothing.... is it not to your liking?

Me: No, no, it's really good....

Eraserhead: But?

Me: I am not used to something this sweet.

Eraserhead: I see...

Me: .... Look, I appreciate all you are trying to do but I won't talk.

Eraserhead: What am I trying to do?

Me: ... 

Eraserhead: Problem child, you had a rough day and all I wanted is to make it a bit better.

Me: .... *sigh*

Eraserhead: Sighing is my job.

Me: Oh sorry that I stole it from you then.

Eraserhead: Pfff-

It was an this moment that we both started laughing and it just felt right at this instance. No one was telling us anything at all and guess what? There was no one to judge me as well. While we were laughing some kids came and started to play and I was watching them quite a bit. 

Me (whispering): I wonder what would have changed if.....

My mother would have loved me the way these children seem to be happy....

If Kacchan would have accepted me...

If I was growing up in a home without any problems...

And had a great quirk as well....

Eraserhead: Nostalgic huh...

Me: Hm?

Eraserhead: You know, when I was a child, everyone feared me because of my villainous quirk.

Me: Wasn't better back then, huh?

Eraserhead: Not at all.

Me: Wasn't better when I was a kid as well... Sometimes I do wonder what would have been if villainous quirks and all that shit wasn't existing.

Eraserhead: Who knows.... who knows....

Me: I mean it's such a bullshit! Look at the kids there! They are playing hero vs villain and there is always that kid who willget the villain role, beaten up and then bullied through and through just because they were born that way.

Eraserhead: ....

Me: I hate it.

Eraserhead: Why not change it?

Me: Change what?

Eraserhead: How people see you. You are a villain but you got a second chance.

Me: I am not wasting that chance! I never asked for it. For me all help is already too late. I don't want it anymore.

Eraserhead: Are you sure?

Me: Yes.

Eraserhead: Then what about them? Is it too late for them?

He asked while he continued to eat and drink his coffee. The kids were enjoying their play and the more I looked it the more I hated it but he had a point. No one could tell what the future would give these kids that we were watching. They seemed friendly with each other... just like me and Kacchan at first. No one could tell if one would end up a villain or if they would be a normal person or even a hero. Sometimes it's not about what we want but how things turn out and what we are doing about them.

Me: No but you never know how the future will hit them. 

Eraserhead: But they still can hope and look forward to something... why can't you.

Me: Because I missed that train long long ago.... and I sinned soo much... there is no hope for me.

Eraserhead: If you feel bad about it, that is a first step. No one is perfect.

Me: Says the one who didn't kill thousands of people oh and your friend Oboro, want to know what happened to that man?

The moment I mentioned that name, I saw the hero jump up and look at me. He was standing right there and I could feel his gaze upon me. That name was probably something I shouldn't have mentioned but right now, I was getting annoyed that he was trying to prey into my business.

Eraserhead: How do you know that name?

Me: I know more than you think... I am not as dumb as the LOV thought I am... I never showed anyone what I know or can do... Don't you think that is the true virtue of a villain?