Broken(adopted by YUNGBLUD part 3)

Circle of Love

WHADDUP BADDIES

Happy Valentine's Day!! I'm planning on kissing my crush, hopefully it goes well....

Anywayyysssss

Tw: self harm

*when they go to bed*

Mars' POV

Me and Awsten haven't talked since I basically walked out on him. I have a feeling he wants to, talk I mean. I sat down on my bed and laid on my pillow. Awsten came from literally out of nowhere and sat down beside me.

"I- um...Mars it doesn't have to mean anything between us if you don't want it to. We can still just be.. friends if that's what you want." He looked up at me, his eyes somehow twinkled even though there weren't any lights on.

I felt myself get lost in them. Then, without thinking, I kissed him. Again. Why the fuck am I doing this? He cupped my cheek, kissing me passionately. I bit down lightly on his lip, a smirk playing on my lips after.

Knock knock.

I assumed it was Dad. I figured that if we didn't answer he'd think we were asleep. How wrong was I.

"Hey, time for beds twats- oh, my bad." Dad said. Me and Awsten pulled away from each other and looked at him. He smiled at us softly.

"No fucking, alright?" He smirked, walking out of my room and closing the door behind him.

...wow. Just wow.

Awsten faced me again and smiled warmly, "cuddles?"

I chuckled, "sure."

I let him get on the other side of the bed because I knew he preferred it that way. He got under the covers and hugged me from behind. I missed this feeling, him holding me close. But.... why do I want this with Rafe too?

*the morning*

Beep beep beeep

I sighed, already morning. It's finally Friday though. Next week we don't have school for some teacher planning shit or whatever. Thank god.

Hopefully today I can decide whether or not I want to be with Awsten or with Rafe. Speaking of Rafe, I feel like I have to tell him about all this shit. Maybe he'll understand. I hope he does. "Awsten..." I whispered. He was still holding onto me. It's so cute, honestly.

"Mmm, no. I won't let you go," he mumbled, holding me closer. I chuckled, he's such a baby.

"I have to, Aws. I'll see you later, though." I said.

"Noooo," he whined, burying his face in the crook of my neck.

I smiled, "if you let me go I'll give you another kiss."

He immediately let go. Classic Awsten. I laughed, getting out of the bed. I walked over to the closet and picked out a random shirt, a jacket, and ripped jeans.

"Where's my kiss!?" Awsten whined.

I laughed, "lemme get ready first."

I took off my shirt, then I realized that Awsten was right there. It's probably best if I don't get naked right in front of him.

"Can you turn around, please," I asked him. He opened his eyes and saw me in just my binder and some sweats. I watched him oscan my body though he can't really see much since my binder covers most of my chest.

"You're literally perfect, Mars," he smiled, looking up, into my eyes.

I chuckled, "you always say that when I change."