Disturbed Serenity

23 - Thorns of roses

First Person Point Of View.

One thing that has been happening to me is experiencing the presence of love in my life. The warmth of his body rushed to my senses as I felt that I was finally awake. I'm not bothered with his snoring, but I was bothered with how I could smell him since we were so close with each other.

Pinagmasdan ko ang paligid ng kwarto ni Hugo. The room has a beautiful interior. He seems like he is well off because of the looks of his home. Lahat ng parte ng bahay niya ay maganda kaya naman hindi ko mapigilan mag-isip how rich is my boyfriend?

There are a lot of things I don't know about him, but I am grateful na kasama ko pa rin siya in the middle of my life's chaos. I get to know him little by little, and one thing's for sure. Experiencing to love, and to be loved encapsulates what life is about. The love that my parents and friends gave me was enough for me so I could be brave choosing to live.

Hindi niya tinuloy kung ano ang balak sana naming gawin kagabi. I admit, I wanted to continue. But, he said something about he wants to wait for me until marriage.

I think I slept so good at that thought.
Sumilip ito sa akin, at ngumiti.

"Good morning...love."

"Uh, Good morning." I slightly smiled. I wanted to look cool so bad.

"How are you feeling?"

Kanina ko pa napapansin ang magandang ngiti niya, na hindi man lang namamalayan ang hiya ko ngayon.

"I am well. How about you?"

"I am at my best today. Thank you." He kissed my forehead again. I am panicking at what he is doing because I am so overwhelmed by his touches. Not that I don't like it.

Umagang tahimik ang bumungad sa amin ni Hugo, hindi naman kasi namin pinipilit makipagusap sa isa't isa. Kinakausap lang din niya ako if ever I need something. He was sweet, and his gestures of affection are so grand. I love every bit of it.

I fixed myself finally after him, giving me time alone. We were both inseparable since this morning, pero mabuti na nga lang pumayag siya. Tumingin ako sa mukha ko at napangiti sa saya na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Uncertainty definitely tortures my mind most of the time, but the idea of it somewhat is beautiful because I am not expecting anything good coming towards me.

Hinawakan ko ang flower dress na binigay sa akin ni Hugo. This fits so well with my aura now. It makes my skin brighter. Sinabihan kasi niya ako na may pupuntahan kami ngayon, and surprise raw.

I liked a little makeup on my face, kaya nilagyan ko ang mukha ko. I don't know how he managed to buy all these things for me, eh magkasama lang naman kami sa bahay niya.

A lot has changed to me. a lot on the physical aspect. I lost weight, and my hair now is longer. I forgot when was the last time I pampered myself. Hindi ko naman sinadya na magbago, talagang natulak lang ako ng mga pangyayari sa buhay ko kaya naging ganito ako.

Hindi lang din sa labas na kaanyuhan ko. Kung hindi sa kalooban. I felt like I am more strong now than before. Yes, this was all the product of my pain it was good that I knew how to overcome it, but what happened to me shouldn't happen to anyone. It's too cruel, and I am still healing from the traumas.

Ngumiti nalang ako sa aking sarili matapos suklayan ang buhok ko. All of these are gonna be well.

I heard a knock on the door.

"Ysela, are you now?"

Oh, I have to finish this.

"Yes! Just doing some final touches!"