Disturbed Serenity

07 - Screaming desire

First Person Point Of View

"Iha, magkano ang kalahating kilo nito?" Pawis na pawis na 'ko dahil kanina pa kaming umaga nagsimula sa pagbebenta ng mga isda rito sa palengke. 

"Isang daan nalang po 'yan, 'nang." I smiled while answering her. Nagbugaw din ako ng langaw na lumilipad lipad sa paligid ng mga benta naming isda. I shood away the flies that were circling around these fishes. 

"O sige! Kunin ko na iyan!" Inabot niya ang bayad bago ako makasagot sa suki na rin ni Nana kaya medyo namumukhaan ko siya.

"Salamat po!" I want to do a good job that's why even if it is tiring, it was worth it if I made a sale. I know my parents will be happy.

"Anak, sunduin mo na ang kapatid mo sa eskuwela at asikasuhin pa ang ibang gawain sa kubo." Nana Sita commanded me for the other to dos today.

I gave her a smile, while I am cleaning the fishes. In my days here I learned how to be one of them. How they live, and how they work, even. I realized I had a lot of priviledge, and a very sheltered girl because of the lack of experiences I have in simple chores. 

"Ikaw talaga, Nana! Alam ko na po ang gagawin!" Tumatawa kong sabi sakan'ya. Nana Sita, and her husband Tata Rick were very patient with me. Hindi ako nakatikim ng pagmamalupit dahil wala akong alam.

Ngumiti siya sa'kin, at sinuklay ang buhok ko gamit ang daliri niya. "Salamat anak kong maganda ha... Mag-ingat ka..."

Pinisil ko ang braso niya dahil nagpapasalamat na naman siya sa akin. Tumawa kami parehas. "Mas maganda ka Nana!"

 I've grown to love them, and it is not even hard to do that because they are lovable people. They cared for me when no one was ready to do so. How the world works sounds erratic to me, after all what happened I am still existing now.

"O siya sige na, lumarga ka na at baka mag-tampo na naman ang kapatid mo dahil matagal na oras siyang hindi nasundo!"

Nagmano muna ako bago ako umalis, nag wave ako kay nana ulit.

While I am walking, I see the beautiful view of the ocean. Katabi lang nito ang palengke. Dito rin minsan nangingisda si Tata, para may ipangbenta kami. The sound of the waves, and air are very part of my routine now, it helped me recover to the things I cannot talk about.

I held my hair while I was walking to Riley's school.

Nasa Santa Isabella ako. Dito ako napunta after kong makatakas kay Lucy. One year after from all the mess, I managed to build a new life. I owe my life to the people who took care of me. My family, and friends here. I changed my name, and kept my identity hidden. It never late to make my life, if I ever want to define what I did.

When we returned to Manila, I managed to escape, and rode on a truck here in Aurora. I was out of my mind at that moment, the fragments are still in me but I am not able to recall what happened to me. For two days, I starved. The only time I got to eat when I saved Riley from an accident.

After that accident, Kinupkop ako ng mga magulang ni Riley. They asked me who I am, bakit ako naroon. I lied about myself. I said that my name is Esang. Nanghingi lang ako ng favor sa pamilya ko ngayon na hihiramin ko ang surname nila. Sabi ko na ulila na ako, na Esang lang ang alam kong pangalan ko. Madali nila akong kinupkop dahil Barangay Captain ang Tata ko. He did everything to protect me, and keep people from asking about my whereabouts.

Hindi ko na namalayan sa kaka-isip ko, nasa harap na 'ko ng school ni Riley.

"Ate!" His small screaming voice was enough for me to hear him.

Kumaway ako sakanya habang papalapit siya sa akin. "Riley!"

"Akala ko si Nana ang susundo naman sa'kin ngayon?"