Poems: Gade 12- Present Day

Webster Defines

I find it essential to express something about myself, a sentiment that has always resonated with the different facets of my being accumulated over the years of growth and challenge.

"I am everything and nothing all at the same time."

Even before fully comprehending this self-concept, its simplicity struck me.

To be everything implies the boundless potential inherent in each fleeting moment—I am myself, a vital component within the intricate machinery of existence, imbued with significance.

To be nothing, on the other hand, —I am devoid of inherent meaning.

This quote encapsulates the fluidity I perceive within myself and the surrounding world.

There are moments when endless possibilities unfold before my decaying eyes, revealing an unseen beauty amidst the ebb and flow of existence.

Yet, in mere seconds, a numbness descends like water receding from a sandy shore, reminding me of life's inherent futility.

I am rendered insignificant.

But there's no need for sadness or pity; it's a rational realization within the fabric of existence. One doesn't pause to mourn the millions who perish around us, returning to the earth from whence they came, as we go about our daily routines.

As I've matured, the quote has become laden with additional layers of meaning, yet its essence remains unchanged.

To be, everything signifies life itself—breathing, feeling, existing in perpetual motion.

To be nothing signifies a sense of detachment, an emotional sarcophagus I've constructed around myself.

"I feel everything and nothing, all at the same time."

I experience a profound connection with everyone I encounter, whether on a superficial or deeper level. I empathize with their joys, sorrows, anger, and pain, extending my heart to theirs and returning fuller each time, overwhelmed by the depth of emotion.

Yet, simultaneously, I'm devoid of feeling. My own self-worth and others' opinions hold no sway over me.

Some perceive me as a kind, loyal,  compassionate soul—a reliable friend ready to support them through any trial. They see me as someone who, despite appearing unassuming, would fiercely defend them to the end.

Others view me as introverted and indifferent—a cynical figure who withdraws into her own world, preferring solitude over social interaction, perhaps even labeling me as toxic or worthless.

Both of those perspectives hold a degree of truth. We are multifaceted, with intricate layers that defy simple categorization. It's our daily choices, our actions, and how we define ourselves each day that ultimately determine which aspect of our complexity shines through. Every single day, we reaffirm the truths that resonate most deeply within us.

"I am everything and nothing, all at the same time."

This statement encapsulates the dichotomy of existence—the constant interplay between myriad emotions, perceptions, and identities. Just as I navigate between feeling everything and feeling nothing, I am reminded of the intricate layers that comprise who I am. Each day, as I define myself anew, I am confronted with the complexities of my being, embracing both the light and the shadow that reside within. In this intricate dance of self-discovery, I am both the sum of my experiences and the endless possibilities that lie ahead.

I am, everything and nothing simultaneously.