Poems: Gade 12- Present Day

I'm tired of commercials

I thought everything was okay

I thought I had finally gotten the courage

To move on

I thought when I looked at you I could finally be okay with saying "Friend"

Thoughts can drown you

If you're not careful

They can take you deep into your subconscious

Hold your feet as your arms flail sporadically in the water

Hands gripping as bubbles surround you

The beautiful ocean blue

Turning into a murky dark green

The sun rays no longer reaching your fingertips

And the moonlight disappeared in hindsight

No longer struggling as much as you did

Like an electric eel, your touch made me ecstatic

Every nerve in my body put on high alert

Thoughts racing in a blur as I craved

You.

Your smile shaped by the spots in my eyes

My cheek over heating as your electricity flows past your lips

I thought I was okay

I thought I could move on from what I really feel

And push everything away

Fake it so much and play a part I never casted for

Until I belived it, and for a time I did

I thought kissing her was the right move

That this could be a new beginning

A new role to play...

But I'm not gonna lie when I say the mere sight of seeing you

Seriously makes my heart pound against my ribs

Every fiber of my being a burning ember

Locked inside screaming out in pain

And the pain is merely a facade for the love I wish I could give you

I thought you could someday forgive me

I keep thinking things that aren't meant to be heard

Things that aren't supposed to be said

I thought everything was okay...