The feeling of love.

21. Haldi.

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Yes. I'm not well but better. So i thought to give an update. I know many people don't read my book, but do read right?

But I'm disappointed that you guys can't even achieve a goal of 6 votes. 😭

Log padh rhe hai. Utna kafi hai.

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Priya's POV.

"I. Hugged. Him." I said.

They looked at me like, maine Salman Khan ki shaadi announce kardi ho!

Complete silence filled the room.

Tick1.

Tick2.

Tick3.

They took another sip from the cup. Still processing what i said.

Soon they became normal and started giving me teasing looks.

"Ahem ahem.... Hug.... Haan?" Nidhi said with a smirk on her face.

For saving myself from the embarrassment i stood up and went to balcony to have some fresh air.

As i stood there, leaning against the Railing, i can't help but think about today's incidents. My thoughts kept wandering around the whole scenario. As the wounds i buried deep inside my heart years ago, started to comeback, i can't help but embrace a sense of vulnerability, fear. Thinking about my past, which i can't forget, i didn't realised when tears welled up in my eyes.

And once again, my negative thoughts came to a halt, by his thoughts.

The hug.

I hugged him!

I still can't believe it.

I remember once in high school, i slapped a guy just because of my encounter with karan.

I had always feared men's touch. Even if its my dad. After that incident, i maintained a distance from my parents. An unseen wall built up between us.

But, but but, i hugged a stranger. Like, not a complete stranger but still......

"Behen tu ro kyu rahi hai." Sadhvi said coming towards me.

Nidhi and Rani were still inside.

She came towards me and wiped my tears and stood beside me, leaning on the railing.

"Behen! Tune sirf hug kiya hai, se...." Before Sadhvi could complete i interrupted,

"Ha ha bas. Baar baar yaad dilane ki jarurat nhi hai. Aur mai uss wajah se nhi ro rhi." I said.

"I know tu kis wajah se ro rhi hai. Sun, Priya, he was your past. Past mein jo hua woh past mein hi rehne dena. Don't let your past effect your present or future." She said.

"Sadhvi. Tu kya kehna chahti hai? Ki mujhe bahut maja aata hai uss kamine ko yaad karne mein? Tujhe kya lagta hai mai bahut maje se apne past ko yaad karti hu, yaa phir mujhe shauk hai apne past to pakad ke rone ka? Nhi! Mujhe nhi pasand mera past! Infact kisi ko bhi shauk nhi hai apne bure past ko yaad karne ka. But i can't help! I fucking  can't help! Mai nhi chahti ki mera past mere present or future ko effect kare but it does effects. Aur mai kuch nhi kar paa rhi. M-mai apne p-past se recover nhi kar paa rhi! Mai apne a-aap ko kaam mein itna involve rakhti hu.... Har samay kaam kaam kaam. Kabhi hospital me extra shifts kiye jaa rhi hu. Kabhi company me raat bhar kaam karti hu. Kabhi 4-5 din tak ghar nhi aati hu mai. But jab bhi aati hu na..... Wahi thoughts mujhe consume kar lete hai! Mai jab bhi bed per let ti hu na mere thoughts apne aap waha wander karne lagte hai!" I said with a sob and then i realized i was crying.