New beginnings

Fix me?

tw:mentions of abuse

Lilys POV

I stayed close to my dad after my panic attack, my dad knows i have panic attacks but i have never had one as bad as this before.

I know that my dad's girlfriend came and she calmed me down, i should be thanking her but i have no energy to move

"Im sorry dad i didnt mean to" I say muffled in my dads chest

"No squirt you dont need to apologise, theres nothing to be sorry for" dad says spinning me around to face him

As he spun me around i see Scarlett in the kitchen and it makes me feel embarrassed that this was my first impression, i felt the tears forming in my eyes.

Scarlett came over with a glass of water and placed it on the coffee table in front of me, i didnt want to make any eye contact with her i was scared she was going to leave my dad because of me and before i knew it i was in my head overthinking about it until Dad snapping his fingers in front of my face caught my attention

"Squirt have some water please" he said whilst picking the cup up

I tried to take the cup but my hands were shaking so much and i couldn't grab it so dad held the cup up to up to my mouth and let me take some sips

"thank you and im sorry scarlett for ruining your day" i said whilst turning around to her whilst being cuddled up to my dad

Scarletts POV

"honey you didnt ruin my day at all, and its nice to finally meet you ive been wanting to meet you for ages" i tell her with a smile on my face whilst reaching out to her hand to hold to get her hands to stop shaking

Lily looked down at her hand and then back up at me and i saw a tiny smile on her face.

"I even got some snacks for you in my car as well, but you dont have to be embarrassed about this my sweet girl"

Lily looked up and smiled at me with her hand still in mine, then Colin spoke up and told me that he would go down to the car and get the shopping and he set Lily down on the sofa

"come here sweet girl" i held my hands out for her hoping that it wasnt too fast for this since we had only met 30 minutes ago

Too my suprise we shuffled over and leant against me and i saw her crying into my side and i kissed the top of her head then moved her to my lap to let her rest her head on my chest

"thank you scarlett, im sorry i was a pain today, please dont leave daddy because of me" i heard lily sob into my chest

"oh lils i would never do that, im here for you and you werent a pain lily you would never be a pain in my eyes" i said trying to reassure her whilst stroking her head.

lilys POV

I know that Scarlett was telling me it was okay and it didnt disturb her day but i couldnt believe her, my dads girlfriends in the past didnt care about me at all some even hit me but my dad didnt know about that, i didnr want him to loose out because of me

This is why i dont want to get close to her because it will only be a matter of time before she gets mad at me and leaves dad and i dont want him to lose Scarlett, i can see the way they look at each other.

I was deep in my thoughts zoned out when Scarlett touched my cheek trying to wipe the tears of my face and i flinced but i hope she didnt notice that otherwise i would have to tell my dad about his old girlfriend

*flashback to 2 years ago*

I just got home from school and i knocked on the door as my key got given to my dads new girlfriend Jodie, i knocked for 5 minutes and then she came to the door

"What are you doing here brat, dont you know that Colin is better of without you" she shouted at me grabbing my hair yanking me inside of the house

"Im s-sorry please let me go you are hurting me" i cried out but she wouldnt let go and continued to pull my hair

Tears were streaming down my face and i just wanted my dad but he told me in the morning he wasnt going to be there for the night as he had to work late on SNL and Jodie was looking after me

After begging for her to let my hair go she slapped me around the face and then grabbed my ear dragging me upstairs to my room and shoved me on the bed

She let go and got close to my face and said if i told anyone she would make sure that i never saw my dad again and she would make sure she makes my life a living hell

I dont know what i did to her, all i did was be friendly to her and she was nice to me infront of Colin but as soon as Colin left she would tell me i was a waste of space in this world thats why my mom left me

Scarletts POV

Lily stopped crying, i wiped the tears of her face and she flinched, i know that Colin would never do anything to harm Lily but why would she flinch but before i could do anything she got off my lap and sprinted upstairs

Colin just came back in and was confused on why Lily ran away

"Why did she run upstairs, is she okay?" colin asked me with worry spread all over his face

"I touched her cheek to wipe the tears and then she flinched and looked scared then ran upstairs im so sorry Colin"

"hey hey no its okay, ill go talk to her if you want you can come with me, im pretty sure she likes you if she was cuddling up with you she never does that to anyone" colin says whilst bringing Scarlett into a hug

Lilys POV

I saw the look on Scarletts face when i flinched she knew and i couldn't handle it i had to get away from her, i know that she wouldn't hit me but im not sure i didnt know Jodie was going to either

I got into my room and sat on my bed with my back against the wall, i couldn't breathe and i was panicking too much, i dont know what came over me but i stood up and wiped everything off my desk making everything fall on the floor and i sunk to the floor trying to do what Scarlett told me before but it wasn't working.

Then all of a sudden someone was behind me stroking my hair, i recognised the smell of her perfume she smelt like roses, Scarlett turned me around and i was facing her and i could see her lips moving but i couldnt hear anything which made me panic even more.

A/n thank you so much for reading my story, if you have any suggestions on what you want me to do with Lily in this story please leave a comment

love P x