Nerds of a feather{REQUESTS OPEN}

Never Again

"Dean!" I yelled at him to turn around. He was walking towards me and Sam, grinning beautifully when that last demon turned out to be alive.

"Ahhhhhh!!!..." He screamed as the demons knife ripped a hole in his chest. Sam and I were on it in seconds, I didn't have my full powers but I had more than enough for this. It screeched as I burned it's corruption away... And then we saw Dean, "no, not again.." Sam's looked of defeat mirrored my broken heart. The demons had been trying to get at Dean more so then they had ever done before. But they had never managed to kill him... I couldn't stand it, he was cold, so cold as Sam clutched his body, begging without words for me to save him. I couldn't, can't, but I don't care how much it hurts. I will not loose him. Not ever again.

My hands glow with angelic light, but it's so hard... The heat, I feel his skin stitching together, the lining of his chest repairing, and life flowing back into his limbs as his heart begins to beat again. That's all I can do, if I go any more... I'll die, but he's still not completely healed, he has a bleeding patch of chest, like he got scraped deeply with a serrated knife. I fall into unconsciousness only when I see his amazing eyes flutter open.

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A week later

"Guys I'm fine, Cas healed me enough and there's only a scar now!" Dean lifted his shirt, his.... Muscular physique is marred only by a scar that is in the center of his chest. It hurts to look at the scar and remember almost losing him. "Just let me hunt! There is nothing I can do to help find the rest of Cas's grace or just do our job in general cooped up in here!" Sam and I don't want him to leave the bunker yet, although he claims to be fine, moving rapidly hurts his wound.

"Augh! Cas you handle him I'm leaving in 10" Sam storms out, frustrated by deans stubbornness.

"Dean" I try not to become angry "I can see that you are in no condition to battle a puppy let alone a demon. You still feel pain whenever you move your chest too hard! You need to stay here and rest"

"Cas I need to go out and do my damn job." He tries to push past me but I grab his shoulder and press him against the wall.

"No you are not fine! You can't even escape my grip, and a demon will not be as gentle as I am" he looks fed up with everything and I know what is coming next

"Why do you care so much?!"

"Because I can't lose you again!" One of the lamps cracks from the power of my voice. I let him go, I can't stand to see Dean dead. Again by my hand. "No matter how hard I try to protect you, I can never do enough. I can't see you die, neither can Sam..." I look away, afraid that my emotional outburst has revealed some hidden feelings I have for Dean. I feel a hand on my shoulder and I see his eyes.

"Cas. I'd never leave you, I would crawl out of hell again so you wouldn't blame yourself for me" I feel a knot in my chest loosen.

"Dean. I can't lose you again. So please, stay for me" I take a deep breath, it can be said now, or silent for ever "stay because I need you..." My feelings have opted to be silent, my heart breaks at my cowardice to tell him the truth. Luckily, I don't even need to say it

"Hey" Dean tilts my head so I look him in the eyes again "I love you to castiel"