(All in Minhos P.O.V) Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading. All the things that we are, are not saying. Can we see beyond the stars, and make it to the dawn? "Y/N," the Rat Man calls out and I can feel my heart drop. Nothing else mattered in that moment, it was only her that I could see clearly and she held back her tears and ran away. I held a hand out to stop her but she slipped past without a backwards glance at me. I was broken, torn between wanting to kick the shuck out of Rat Man and the people that did this to us, cry for Newt and Y/N or to go and hold Y/N like there was no tomorrow when in reality, for her there was always the possibility of that happening. Change the colours of the sky and open up to. Ways you make me feel alive, the things I'd loved you. Of all the things that never die to make it through the night. Love will find you. I stood behind her as she knelt on the floor sobbing into her arms. "Promise me something,"she sniffles looking direct at me with her dazzling blue eyes. "Anything," I agreed nodding weakly knowing that I would have to cherish the moments we have left in life together always. "Don't let me become one of them. Don't let me go past gone," she whimpered and I almost nodded before realising what she was asking me to do and I quickly shook my head. "I c-can't," I stuttered, and I never stutter, but I shucking love this girl, my girl, and I could never kill her. "Don't make me beg Min," she shot back. Damn that nickname caught me off guard, it was rarely used unless Y/N was being serious, or she was mad with me. What about now? What about today? What if you're making me, all that I was meant to be? What if our love, never went away? What if its lost behind, words we can never find? Baby before its too late, what about now? I looked at the note in my hand that was left behind in the berg. Those three words staring me in the face and yet it still didn't seem real. "Im sorry - Y/N," was scrawled in a rush and left in a heap on the dirty bedsheets I now sat on. I kick the bed in frustration having let Y/N slip through my fingers so easily and leave me. I also may have punched a wall or two and then curled up on the bed inhaling her scent of vanilla and lilac as I silently cry myself to sleep, the tears only for my lost love. The sun is breaking in your eyes, to start a new day. This broken heart can still survive, with a touch of your grace. The shadows fade into the light. I am by your side, when love will find you. I sit silently beside Thomas in the back of a van as we leave the berg behind. "Oh shit," the driver cusses as we come across more cranks. Two of them stand alongside one another and I recognize them instantly. "Stop the van!" I demand but the driver doesn't listen so I throw open the doors and jump out instead, with who I assume is Thomas close behind. "Y/N!" I call out taking a few uncertain steps forward and she turns her head, but from where I stood its clear to see that Y/N wasn't sane right now. Her eyes didn't have their usual sparkle and they had a crazed look in them, her lovely hair was matted and in clumps and I had to remind myself that Y/N was still there and I would stop at nothing to bring her back to me. "I'm right here Y/N, its me Minho, your boyfriend?" I whisper as I walk forwards stopping a few metres away. A spark of recognition is there for a moment and she smiles before frowning and tugging at her hair. "You never loved me! Lies, all lies. You wanted me dead!" she screamed and I ran forward and held her close whispering soothing words into her ears. "Remember this? How I'd hold you when you cried in the maze and we'd talk for hours after? I know this isn't you and I want the real Y/N to know that I love her and I'm not leaving without her," I said all while searching her eyes for a glimpse of my Y/N coming back to me.
Now that we're here, now that we've come this far, just hold on, There is nothing to fear, for I am right beside you, for all my life I am yours. Y/N looked unsure back at me before her smile brightened and her eyes sparkled their usual sapphire blue. "I remember," she smiles happy with herself. "I had to leave because of the voices. I love you but the voices were telling me to hurt you before you hurt me. I couldn't do it so ignored the voices but it hurts, I'm scared Minho," she then pushed me away. "The note was a warning to stay away because I don't want to hurt you. I left but you still followed me, why?" she raised her voice and I could see that I was losing her all over again. "Because I love you and I am staying right here until this is over, or you can leave with me. I need you by my side, always and nothings changed," I insisted reaching out for her warmth against me once more but Y/N shied away from my grasp. No, I hate you," she hissed and I flinched at her cold glare. "You know that's not true," I retorted having seen the truth in her eyes. "Its easier if you hated me so then you wouldn't hurt when I did this," she snapped and quickly grabbed the knife I had in my pocket before retreating to safe distance creating a space between us. I didn't hesitate to run towards her. "Don't" she ordered and the venom in her voice made me pause. "If you love me, you'll let me go," she smiled softly one last time before holding the knife to her throat and cutting a long deep line along the base of her neck before the knife clattered to the floor. "Noo!" I scream as I run to catch her as her body slumps to the floor. I propped her head up against my knee trying my best to stop her from choking on her own blood. "No don't close your eyes, we're gonna get you somewhere safe to heal. Let me see those beautiful eyes," I encouraged her as I quickly removed my shirt before balling it up and pressing it to her neck to try and stop the bleeding but Y/N swatted my hands away leaving them all bloody. "Its okay, I'm okay. I'm happy now, and I lied before, I do still love you," she whispered before her eyes fluttered shut and her heart gave out. I remember Thomas hauling me to my feet and seeing Newt lying motionless next to Y/N and wondered how I could of missed that happening. I climb into the back of the waiting van wordlessly and Thomas didn't push it further. One question ran through my mind as we rattled on in the van on our journey to Paradise. What about now? -
