Innocence lost

15

We get in there and sit down. All the girls are looking at us. Compton is big but it's small at the same time. Everyone knows we're not friends anymore. A black girl approaches us. We used to go to school w her.

" yall want anything ?" She asks popping her gum.
" nah I'm good. "
" yeah me too. "
" well yall just can't sit here. " she says putting her hands on her hips.
" last time I checked this was a McDonald's not a fucking diner. Get gone. " I say. Alicia looking at me in shock. She rolls her eyes walking away switching.
I roll my eyes and look back at Alicia
" anyways. " I say breathing out.
" damn. " she says laughing. I give a light chuckle and stare at her scar for a minute. I feel bad. I didn't want all that to happen to her.
She catches me looking at it and shifts putting her head down.
" I wanna apologize Stoney. "
" for ?" I knew what for but I wanted her to admit she set me up.
" It was me that called Juwan. But I didn't know it was gonna get outta hand like that. " I roll my eyes.
" I mean I guess I was jealous. " she says in a whisper.
" of what?"
" the attention Eric was giving you. I'm sorry I am. And I miss you like crazy girl. Like nobody fucks with me now. "
" really ? No one fucks with me either. " I say laughing.
She laughs with me and it gets quiet.
" I don't know if we can be friends like we used to Alicia. I can't trust you. " I say in a serious tone. "
" I just didn't want him to hurt you. " she says giving me a sorry look. A part of me feels like she's lying. And another part feels like she's telling the truth. She couldn't have hated me all the time we were friends.
" You were kinda right about him anyways. " I say with a side smile. I explain bits and parts of what happened but not everything

" damn girl. That shit is crazy. He went from selling rocks to selling records. " she says smiling.
" damn I'm mad for pissing off Dre. Him having money would've been too bomb. Nails done every week. " I start laughing. Her ass.
Every female in the McDonald's runs outside scaring me and Alicia we both look outside to see NWA.
She looks at me
" you going over there?"
" you not ?" She pointed to the scar on her face. I dented my eyebrows.
" yeah I'm going " I get up walking outside.
I see cube first and he's smiling females are taking pictures with him and he's signing anything they throw at him. And I mean anything. He looks over at me and I'm standing there arms crossed he pushes his way through the crowd and walks over to me hugging me I hug him back he smells of cheap perfume.
" What's good stoney?"
" what's up cube. " I have to say his smile makes me smile.
" shiiiiit. " he says waving his arm at all the girls.
" ah shit here come E." He says. I look over and the crowd gets even louder. Every girl in it is screaming at the top of their lungs. He walks back in the group disappearing.
E is standing in front or the crowd now. Girls are basically ripping his clothes off. And it's making me mad to be honest.
I stand there staring at him arms folded. He finally looks at me raises his eyebrow and walks away into the crowd of girls. I stand up straight letting out a disappointed exhale. I back away slowly walking into the McDonald's. Me and Alicia being the only girls in the place. I sit back down holding my tears in. Her face turns in disgust.

" he didn't even acknowledge your life."
" well I mean. With hundreds of girls out there I wouldn't either. "
" he got you fucked up. " she says. I just put my head down.
" I gotta go. " I say realizing that it's almost dark.
" well it was good catching up with you stones. " I nod giving a weak smile

" yeah you too Alicia. " I push open the door roughly walking past the mob of girls and E to my house.
I've been crying ever since I left. Juwan was right about him. I wipe my eyes before I get to my porch.
I see Juwan and his homies. I roll my eyes walking up the stairs opening the loud creaky gate.
" Where you coming from?" He asks sipping a 40.
" McDonald's. " I mumble opening the front door.
" you get me anything?" One of his homies ask smiling.
" nigga do you see a bag in my fucking hand?" I roll my eyes slamming the door. I hear them laughing outside. I run upstairs slamming my door laying down in my bed kicking my shoes off I let out a loud exhale.
The door opens and it closes quietly.

" whaaaaaat" I say into the pillow

" you slamming doors like you pay bills." I hear amusement in her voice.
" what is it mom?"
She sits down on the edge of my bed.
" what's wrong ? "
I'm so irritated all I feel is pain and sadness. I jump up of out bed.

" WE DID IT OKAY? ME AND ERIC. WE DID IT AND NOW HE WONT FUCKING TALK TO ME!" I scream tears rolling down my face. Her eyes get huge as she jumps up to.
" DID IT? LIKE IT IT ?"
" YES IT IT. " her mouth drops.
" why would you I - you - I - what. What Stoney? What !"
" he made me feel special mom I don't know. I regret it cause all these groupies are all over him and just I don't know what to do. " I slump down in a chair I have in my room. She puts her hands on her hips looking down at me.
" did you wear a condom?"
No
" of course we did ! I'm not that stupid." She exhales shaking her head.
" are you disappointed in me?" She just looks at me and doesn't say anything.

*Anitas POV *
I look at Stoney. My sweet baby. Heartbroken. Her eyes big and red and nose running. I shake my head walking out of her room closing the door. I speed downstairs putting my shoes on and putting my hair up in a tight bun I walk outside slamming the door  to see Juwan and his hoodrat friends.
" get off my porch now. All of you. "
" why you tripping Mrs P?"
" I'm not " tripping " I don't want yall on my porch. " I say getting in my car.
" when I get back yall better be gone. Maybe even you Juwan. " I speed off down the street and around the corner I drive for a little bit going up and down streets.  I hear loud music playing and half naked and fully naked women. My eyes grow in amazement and I know I found what I was looking for. Or should I say who I was looking for. I park my car and get out I knock on the door. No answer I walk in and it's a mess.
My face turns in disgust. I tap a girl on the shoulder.
" What's up grandma?"
" Where's Eazy e ?"
She laughs
" I don't know what you want with him but he's back in the yard. " she looks at me up and down laughing again turning back around. 
I have on jeans and a v cut shirt and black converse. Compared to everyone else I'm dressed like a nun.
I make my way to the back and I see Eazy e. Sitting down with females all around him in bikinis some in just the bottoms. He sitting back with a smirk and a 40 bottle. The girls are touching all over him and sitting on his lap. I walk over there standing in front of him. The girls all giving me a look

" I need a word with you Eazy e. " he laughs.
" Now. "
" who the fuck is this old broad ?"
A girl on his lap says. I snatch her off throwing her in the pool grabbing him by his arm snatching him out of his chair. He looks shocked. I drag him through the back yard gate walking in the middle of street then to the other side on the sidewalk where it's quiet.
" You want my autograph or something?" He says laughing fixing his clothes.
I stand there arms folded
" you wish I wanted your autograph.  Who do you think you are? Fucking my daughter and just leaving? She trusted you and you do this? "
" and whose your -"
" take those damn shades off when I'm talking to you!" He takes them off quick looking at me.
" my daughter is Stoney. " his eyes get huge.

*Eazys POV *
My eyes get huge. They do look similar. Her moms hot for an old one.
" look ma'am. I apologize I've just been real busy. "
" busy? You don't look too busy right now.  My daughters special. She's not a hit it and quit it. " i wanted to call her a bitch so bad but I bit my tongue

" look your daughter doesn't understand my life style. "
" well make her understand. I will standby and watch her cry while you fucking around with these hood rat hoochie  mamas. "
I didn't say anything I just stared at her with one eyebrow raised.
" anything else?"
She looks at me in disgust and I give her the look right back. 
* Anita POV *.

" I'm not gonna force you to be with my daughter. But you better make it right some how. Tell her like it is. "
" listen miss ....  "
" Anita. "
" Miss Anita. Your son is the main one keeping me from her.  I don't want any issues or problems with that shit. He needs to know his place and he don't. " he says in a nonchalant tone.
I don't say anything about it because I know he's telling the truth about it. I smile at him.
I get out a piece of paper and write something on it against the pole.
" Here. "
" what's this?" He says chuckling.
" My address. I expect over to talk to Stoney.  " he opens his mouth and I walk away to my car. I get in it fast and he bends down looking in the window knocking on it. I roll it down a little bit
" Have a nice night E. " I speed off pushing him from my window.