MAYBE ONE DAY (Completed)

HONESTY

CHAPTER 11

*A FEW DAYS LATER*

Nasa office ako ngayon with my third cup of coffee, huge eye bags, and a freaking headache. Ilang araw na kasi akong hindi nakakatulog ng maayos. Naisip ko nga na kailangan ko ng break, kahit dalawa o tatlong araw lang. Not from work, not really... but from the stuff that's messing with my head. And by stuff, I mean...

Althea.

Everytime I try to stop myself from being sweet and getting attached, I find myself doing the exact opposite. Bakit kasi ganun? Ayokong maging ganito ulit. The last time I was this close to someone, I ended up falling in love with them. And honestly? I don't want a repeat of that.

Natatakot ako na kapag hindi pa ako tumigil at umiwas, I'll have the answers to my questions. Natatakot ako na baka bigla akong malinawan. Na baka bigla na namang mawala ang control ko sa sarili. And I can't. I can't lose myself once again.

Wala pa si Althea sa office. She said she'll be late. Buti nalang. I can still think of a way to get out of this place. Ayoko munang makita siya, kasi alam kong kapag nagsimula na naman siyang maglambing... wala akong lakas para pigilan siya.

So I decided na tumambay muna sa site.

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Lunch time na at walang tigil ang pagtawag at pagtext sakin ni Althea. I currently have 24 missed calls and 11 unread texts from her. Please Althea, wag muna ngayon. I need to think.

Bakit nga kasi ganun? Ano bang meron? Bakit bigla kaming naging ganung ka-close? Hindi pwede eh. Basta hindi. Maybe I'm just worried? Worried na baka may relasyon akong naaapakan?

I know in my hearts of hearts na may something sila ni Cathleen. Oo, sinabi sakin nila Batchi at Wila na magbestfriends sila... and I believed that at first. Kasi nga diba, sweet din ako sa mga kaibigan ko? But eversince kasi nagkasama kami sa trabaho ni Althea... halos araw-araw talagang pumupunta si Cathleen para dalhan siya ng pagkain at sunduin ito pagkatapos ng trabaho. And I don't think that's even normal para sa magbestfriends lang. Hindi naman kami ganun ni Sally. Naging ganun lang ako ka-grabe mag-effort nung kay... nevermind. And besides, I'm not THAT oblivious. Ramdam ko naman kung may something between two people. Kilala ko narin si Althea. Kayang-kaya ko na siyang basahin.

I know that she's a lesbian. Trust me... I know.