Second Chance (JaDine Fanfiction)

Chapter: No More Heartbreaks

Three months. It has been three long months since James had given me the space I needed. The space he needed, too.

While I was crashing my world apart over the loss, I never fully understood that I was also losing myself to the people that cared for me. Until almost everyone gave me what I thought I needed -- space.

My mom, who always seem to understand my reasons but never asked why...maybe because she is still in pain, and the process of grieving is never going to be over for her.

Dad, who was firm but silent...he gave mom and I the space we needed.

And James, whom I really left abandoned and never cared for while I thought I was moving on.

How is he right now? Has he been thinking of me? Did he miss me? Does he still care for me?

"Does he still love me?" tanong ko sa sarili ko habang hawak-hawak ko ang kwintas na ibinigay niya sa 18th birthday ko. "It still feels like how I've let go of you two years ago...mahal na mahal pa rin kita."

James' POV

"Pare, come on over. Drinks on me." pagyaya ni Marco sa akin.

Nakisali na rin si Yuan. "Bro, you have to let go of your self-proclaimed distractions. Tatanda ka niyan!" at tumawa na sila.

Napangiti na rin ako. Kunsabagay, maybe it's time for me to finally give myself a break.

I've been loving the same girl over and over. But how was I to her? She cannot even come to me when she's in despair. How did I even matter?

"Fine. Basta, pagkatapos nitong gabi'ng ito, huwag niyo na akong bigyan ng maraming rason. We will work on this project. WE...not just I." at nagbanta ako, "Kasi kapag ako pinabayaan pa ninyo sa project na ito, I'll kick your asses off and sa akin lang ang project and proceeds nito." banta ko sa kanila.

Napalatak ng tawa si Yuan. "Bro, gusto lang namin mag-enjoy ka naman for tonight. Hindi ka namin papabayaan sa ere. Kung makahugot naman, oh! Hindi kami yung girlfriend mo oy."

Siniko siya ni Marco, "Yuan..."

"Sorry, bro." pagpapaumanhin niya.

Ako naman ang napatawa. "Bro, it has been three long months. Tanggap ko na, she needs herself and the distractions. Not me. Pampadagdag ng bagahe niya lang ako. Kaya starting tonight, I'll give myself every chance I could get. I just want to feel free. Masaya naman siguro si Nadine...don't you think I should be happy, too?"

They nodded. "You deserve it, pare. Kung kayo talaga ni Nadine ang para sa isa't isa, kayo talaga."

I was stunned.

Are we really meant to be together? After all of this, do we still deserve another chance?

"I don't know. We were once given a chance...but right now, hindi ko alam. Pagod na rin akong ipilit ang sarili ko sa kanya." ang tanging nasabi ko.

Nadine's POV

My phone kept ringing.

"Sino kaya ito?" it was an unknown number. But I was hoping it's James.

"Hello?" bati ko.

"Hey, it's Olivia. The girl you're with the other night?"

Ay oo nga pala. The dope girl.
While I was busy drinking, tumabi siya sa akin para i-offer ang pot niya. But I stopped taking morphine. Because I see that it is not doing me any better.

"Oh, yeah. Napatawag ka?" pagmamaang-maangan ko.

"I'm at the Red Dot. Come over?"

Sira yata ang ulo ng babaeng ito.