Love Until It Hurts (Monteverde Series 4)

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Chapter Thirty Seven

Maria Samantha

            "Celine, look at me. Babe, please look at me." Hinahaplos ni Mico ang mukha ko pero pumipiksi ako. I can't look at him in the eyes because that is how much I despise him. I don't want to hear his voice, see him, or feel his touch. I don't even want to be within this proximity.

            Bumalik sa akin ang lahat -- ang mga panloloko niya, ang mga pagsisinungaling niya sa akin, ang pagtago niya sa sa akin sa Siargao. Those were the things only a madman like him would do. Those things were unforgivable.

            "Babe, are you still mad at me?" he called again, but I gritted my teeth.

            "I hate you so much, Mico." Tears started to burn my eyes and I would have lunged at him if only I was not shackled by his stupid manacles. Nakakabit ito sa headboard kaya wala akong ibang magawa kung hindi magsisigaw at pumiksi sa tuwing lalapit siya sa akin.

            "Celine, no, baby, no... Don't call me that. Hindi na Mico ang pangalan ko. I know you're upset because you found out my real identity, pero ako pa rin 'to. Ako pa rin ang asawa mo, ako pa rin si William." He inched forward but I scooted backwards. "Wala pa ring nagbago sa nararamdaman ko para sa'yo."

            "Don't you dare come near me, Mico Aldeguer. Isinusumpa ko ang katauhan mo." He looked hurt but he deserved far worse than my piercing words.

            "Shhh, naiintindihan ko na galit ka sa akin. That will pass. When I bring you to Finland, we can have a do-over. Magpapalit tayo uli ng pangalan. Maybe you can be a Margaret or an Emily. I can be an Albert or a Marvin. It doesn't matter what names we put on. Ang mahalaga magkasama tayong dalawa. Mamayang gabi tayo lilipad, itatakas kita uli, Celine—"

            "Wala kang puso! You lied to me! You hid me from my own life! You stole my identity! And now you want to do it again!" I pulled my hand free but the manacles were made of thick metal. "Ang kapal ng mukha mo! Ang sama sama ng ugali mo,  Mico. Kahit itakas mo ako ng paulit-ulit, hindi magbabago ang nararamdaman kong pagkamuhi para sa'yo. Even if you take me to Finland or whichever country you think of, I will NEVER love you."

            "Don't say that!"

            "I will never love you, Mico. I will never! Even if you kill me."

            "You're making me angry, Celine. You don't want to see me angry, babe. Kaya kumalma ka na. Ayaw kong magalit sa'yo. Ayaw kong mag-away tayo. Hindi 'yan makakaganda para sa relasyon nating dalawa at para sa pamilyang bubuuin natin."

            "You will never get my approval or my trust again for as long as I breathe."

            "I'm sorry." He gave me a tight hug and I tried to shove him away using my shoulders but he held me in place. Naramdaman ko ang pag-alo niya sa akin, ang banayad na paghimas niya sa likod ko at lalo lamang akong nagalit. He acts like what he's done is nothing of importance! He acts as if we'd just had a petty argument! "I'm sorry, Celine. But at that moment, I knew that I just had to do that."

            "You were so selfish and manipulative! You made me believe that we were married! You used me for your own benefits, for your own satisfaction! Do not tell me that you're sorry because you intended to do that!" sigaw ko. Umiling-iling siya na akala mo ba ay talagang nahihirapan siya sa pakikitungo ko sa kanya. "Kahit ilang sorry mo pa, hindi mo maibabalik sa akin ang dalawang taong ninakaw mo sa buhay ko."

            I want him to go to jail. I don't want Zade to kill him, because that would be way too easy. Gusto kong mabulok siya sa kulungan na iniisip ang mga pagkakamaling ginawa niya. I want him in torment for the rest of his sad pathetic life.