Truly Sincere [Part 1]

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On the other side

I ran towards the lawn, and sat on the wooden swing, I was bewildered by everyone's reaction of harry embracing me in his arms while they were hitting me.

'we are friends' I thought to myself and my heart beat became faster as I placed a fist on my heart

'no! today it was different' I shook my head back and forth at my thought

'no jas!! no! don't think like that, tell yourself that its nothing, .. but there's something definitely going on, lads are hiding from me something, they're acting a little weird from past week'

I looked towards the main entrance door subconsciously, as my eyes were waiting for someone, or wanted to see someone

'harry'

'why didn't he come after me? that's because you're just being over dramatic Jas!'

I slipped down back in the swing where I was sitting, and it felt really good I patted the arm rest of the swing, it seemed a little old but it was really beautiful, I chuckled that it's really easy for me to get distracted by little things

"its a good swing" I smiled remembering we had a similar swing at my parents, I used to do my homework on it while playing with my cat, life was good, I'd just lay their all day, but all of sudden I recalled my parents and my eyes filled with tears

'they'll never forgive me, for what I've never done, they'll never accept me back again' I sighed, and deeply inhaled at the memories and some unknown regrets

Jas are you about to get your period

"what's happening to you Jas, you need rest because you're being so dramatic" I laughed quietly talking to myself and wiped my tears and I eventually decided to go to bed

Fighting with the long term depression isn't easy, especially when you're humiliated before in the past by your loved ones, it requires strength and the healing process isn't linear, the constant strength sometimes is triggered by the littlest of the inconveniences.

Harry

I left the room and went to mine, I left the lights off and went towards the balcony of my room, but when I saw Jas sitting on the swing from my window I decided to stay inside, I'm afraid if she notices me.

I watched her from the window of my room, she was sitting adorably alone thinking to herself something, definitely she was thinking about everyone how they reacted and how they teased her. she seemed puzzled to me, but she looked at the swing and smiled like a kid to herself, and when she recalled something her eyes were shiny, and she shook her head while wiping her tears

'she's so puzzled and I know she's feeling alone right now' at the thought of her my own eyes filled with tears and I wanted to hug her and want her to feel my love and my aching for her.

"Hey! How are you doing?" Zayn patted my shoulder and I turned around to see only lads were coming inside my room

"man! why so dark in here" Liam talked to himself while turning on the lights, they frankly dashed on my bed and couch, I just stood there, not knowing what to say

"she needs some time" Louis said while sitting on the couch, and I threw myself on the bed while hugging the pillow

"she needs time, I need time what the hell is wrong with this time" I yelled while looking at the roof above me, and everyone laughed

"dude! being in love costs everything, and by everything I mean... everything" Zayn said while sitting next to me

"don't worry you'll propose her right on this trip" Niall said while checking my drawers, and I looked at him dumbfounded

"yeah! and we'll help you" Louis said

"don't worry we have a super solid truth and dare solution" Liam laughed and I rolled my eyes while laughing along with him

"I'm not seven Liam, and she's not just a classroom crush" I laughed while frowning at them, still not believing my ears on their super solid plan

"you think we are joking" Louis asked and raised my eyebrows and laughed at them, he threw the pillow on my face

"its a good plan mate" Liam almost screamed at me and I shook my head

"we're helping you and you're like... get up guys! he doesn't need our help" Niall clapped his hands and everyone looked at me while flaring their nostrils, still not getting up.

"Enlighten me with more details about the plan" I sat down on the edge of the bed to face everyone, I stood up and walked unconsciously towards the window to get a peak of Jas, but she was gone

"you know! I've never felt this nervous for any girl, I don't know maybe I'm scared of her" I mumbled and they all laughed In unison after waiting for couple of seconds, I turned around towards them while shaking my head and I saw Mom standing there at the door

"My love, don't be scared of accepting how you feel, make every possible effort so that you have no regret later" Mom said while coming towards me and patted my shoulders on which I hugged her