Truly Sincere [Part 1]

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"I told ya Jas, you were not listening to me" Alex was walking to and fro like an angry lioness in front of me when we were in our room later that night

"why are you not saying a word?" she angrily leapt towards me

"Alex!! What can I say, its his life, he can take whatever decision he wants to" I sighed leaning my head with the headrest of bed

"but he have no right to hurt lads like this, everyone like this, I'm so pissed at him" She fanned her arms disappointedly and sat down on the edge of my bed

"Alex!! I'm worried about harry"

"what! Is he okay?"

"no he's not, he cried on my shoulder, it broke my heart Alex" I held my temples and closed my eyes when his teary eyes were coming to my trance

"you didn't talk to him, did you?" Alex sat on the edge of my bed near my feet

"he was already broken, I couldn't utter anything, he needed me" I said and she hugged me tightly

"cause its just not meant to be Jas" Alex giggled foolishly

"you're an idiot, and your logics don't make sense to me at all" I sighed annoyingly but her contagious smile couldn't keep me unaffected

"go give him your time, he needs you" She pushed me and steered me out of the room

she was right he needed me that moment, when I went downstairs in the lounge lads were sitting there, except Zayn. I sat beside harry, they were talking about the same topic, harry was quiet and disturbed at the same time, I loosened his fists and slid my hand into his to grip his hand, he looked down at me I only smiled at him, quietly told him that he's not alone, and his frown went softer and lips arched into a small smile, I placed my head on his shoulder and I felt his muscles relaxed as he sighed

"we can't say anything now, he have taken final decision" Louis punched the cushion

"All we can do now, is to support and respect his decision" Niall replied while frowning at louis who was constantly punching the throw cushion of the sofa

"Its difficult, for him and for us, but at the end we have to do this, it was meant to happen" Liam said massaging Louis's temples with his finger tips sitting beside louis

"stop it already" Niall snatched the cushion from his hand and placed it aside but he picked another one and smirked childishly at Niall who only sighed annoyingly face palming himself, they were not in the mood to joke around for the first time our studio was in dead silence

"please leave this topic here, its his life let him do whatever he wants to" Harry said in a low voice I could notice the pain and heaviness in his throat

"according to the contract he have to complete this album, so just try to focus on the rest of the album, I don't want anyone of you distracted by all this fuss" I said and they were silent for some minutes

"we'll work on that" Louis said in a cheering voice to make the air less thick

"alright!" Niall too smiled

"now try to get some sleep before tomorrow's early morning recording, I won't except any excuses" I ordered like teacher

"thank you Jas, you're great" Liam kissed at the top of my head brotherly before leaving with Louis and Niall, leaving only me and harry there

"Say something" I said filling the silence between us when we were left alone and it was the longest minutes when we were together and didn't say anything, he was in deep thoughts

"Like what" he chuckled looking at me and I just sighed in response, I opened my mouth to say something but before I could utter a word he cut me in between

"Jas!! I need you"
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"I'm here for you harry, I'll never leave you"

"promise?" There was hope in his eyes but a fear in his voice, I was questioning myself at the moment for how would I break the promise later if I make promise this time

"yea! Promise harry, I love you" I said, my words were stuck in throat, I had a feeling that I won't have to leave him after all

"I love you too" he kissed my forehead caressing my cheek in his right hand, I closed my eyes to devour his touch, he gently rubbed my cheek with his thumb in circles, when I opened my eyes he was leaning in closely to my face, looking at my lips.

"Go to sleep, Harry" I whispered slowly and he sighed heavily before smiling gently at me and move backwards

"I wanna sleep here" he said in raspy tired voice

"Here!" I laughed, and without saying anything he made himself comfortable and placed his head in my lap, facing me. I smiled shyly before placing my hand on his cheek

"Are you okay with it?" His voice was tired, as if this treatment was all he needed at the moment

"Yes I'm very okay with it" I leaned forward to plant soft kiss on his forehead, I slipped my hand in his soft hair and started playing with it. His eyes were heavy with sleep and he was blinking his eyes tiredly but he wanted to stay up

"Sleep" I whispered when he was constantly struggling with himself to stay awake

"Jas! You have no idea how much you complete me" he looked directly in my eyes gripping my wrist of my hand which was in his hair, I paused for a moment there

"And you, me" I answered, he smiled looking at me, he kissed my hand

"I was wondering, how about you get a haircut" I playfully played with a curl to it's full length

"Not gonna happen" he giggled amusingly and closed his eyes

"Okay sleep, or go to your room" I said sternly

"How about you lay down with me" he got up at once and placed the throw cushions on the floor, and tapped on them sitting down on the floor for me to lay down with him. I picked up the throw blanket from sofa and lay down on the floor. Harry tucked me in blanket along with himself

"Good night" he placed a soft kiss on my forehead before dosing off in no time. I was still up, the thought of me leaving him soon was suffocating me,

If I'm restless now, will I be satisfied with my decision later?

I was sure about one thing that night,

it was too late, too late for both of us to not fall harder