Truly Sincere [Part 1]

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After five day stay in hospital I was finally home, I was happy to be home, the kind of happy one feels at home, the coziness and warmth of my own bed, yet the contentment was shallow, I felt a void inside my heart, which made me want to punch myself in the face for not smiling heartily.

Harry grabbed my shoulders as we walked in the room, I walked slowly, I noticed Hoor had put the fresh sheets and placed fresh towels on bed stool

"Take some rest and I'll prepare warm bath for you" Harry carefully made me sit on the edge of the bed, I leaned my back on the headboard of the bed.

"Okay" I smiled at him walking towards the glass door of the room which opens in the balcony, he drew off the curtains and I had impulse to get alert that I straightened my spine all at once, I groaned when my stitches throbbed due to sudden movement

"What are you doing?" Harry gasped as he ran towards me, I placed my palms on my lower belly and leaned my back on once again "be careful" Harry mumbled as he tucked me in the fleece duvet and rubbed my back in circular motion when I lie down

"Can you please draw the curtains back, the light is blinding me, I need to take a nap" I told him and he mumbled okay before drawing back the blinds and getting inside the bed with me. He held me close until I fell asleep

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"Mommy!,...mommy!,.... Come here,.... See,!!....come here!!"

A soft voice was echoing in the whole house, I was trying to search the source of the baby voice, I searched every room, I was all alone in the home, I was tired now

"Come here!!! ..... Mommy!! Come here!!..."

"Hazel! I can't find you! Where are you?" I frantically called her name

"I'm here Mommy"
And a soft cackling sound tickled the air while I was standing alone in the dark hallway, at the other end if the hallway bright light was coming out of the small door, deranged, I ran towards the door and finally entered a bright colored decorated room, I looked around the room, it was filled with toys. I smiled recognizing Hazel's nursery, and then I spotted a light skinned small girl standing near the crib, she had hazel eyes and soft curly hair, and she was smiling beautifully with a slight dimple on her cheek

"Hazel!! What are you doing here?"

"See, what is it" She was holding a dagger

"leave it!! Give it to me!!" Distressed I scowled in terror and I couldn't move, my steps frozen. she started stabbing herself, and all I could see was blood everywhere

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"No!" I opened my eyes to the very familiar ceiling of my room, terrified out of breath, I looked for Harry, he rushed out of the bathroom in his shorts only

"Jasmin!" He held me and I sat down, "nightmare again?" He asked and I nodded with the tears in my eyes and I nuzzled my face into his chest

"I killed her" I mumbled through tears

"What! No, you didn't, stop saying that Jasmin, you're shivering" He rubbed my back to soothe me as he planted a soft kiss on my head before pouring me a glass of water, as I drank half glass of water he hugged me again

"Come with me" I mumbled looking up at his face while still in his embrace

"Where?" He asked before leaning in closer and planting a soft kiss on my lips. I grabbed his hand and took him to Hazel's nursery, the door was locked, I slid open the lock and we entered the room

I smiled recalling last week, the air was filled with glee with the joy of new arrival in family. And a sudden twist of fate, everything was shattered

I walked towards the baby crib and traced my fingers on the railing of crib, with the tears in my eyes, I picked up the stuffed bunny and music started playing, I chuckled as my tears started rolling down

Harry embraced my shoulders as he held me close, I sobbed quietly on his shoulder, as I tucked the stuffed bunny near my chest

"I can still feel her around" I cried and he turned me to face him

"God has a plan for us Jas, we don't know this yet" he wiped my face and I looked down at our feet pointing each other, he raised my chin and cupped my cheeks

"but if God takes something from your hand, he'll give you something bigger in return" he kissed my forehead and I nodded

"You're right" I smiled at him and he held my shoulders to escort me back from there, I was still hugging the stuffed bunny and Harry smiled looking at it

"You can take Mr bunny to your room" he poked the toy and the music played, we both ended up laughing and we bid farewell to the baby room before closing the door behind us, for now.