Truly Sincere [Part 1]

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when the sun was setting down, and the sky took a different color that day than any other ordinary sunset, it isn't strange for me, because I believe that every sunset sings a different Melody. In my heart I was happy to get to see the sunset in forest, I couldn't get the whole view because of the trees bowing down on us and covering the excessive sky, but I sure saw the gorgeous orange streaks of sunset through the various tree crowns. we sat there on the logs, chatting with each other, eating marshmallows and homemade sandwiches in front of fire. There was so much joy in the air, amidst of all the glee, we lived in the moment

"guys!! Let's play truth or dare" Danielle suggested and everyone too agreed, cause the time and place was perfect to play it

"okay! I'll roll" Niall placed a malt glass bottle in the center and spined it, the bottle neck spun beautifully and it stopped on Louis, everyone hooted and Louis stood up clenching his teeth while smiling and he chose truth

"okay! Reveal something loui" Sophia said and he rubbed his hands

"like something no one knows?" Jade added and he tilted his head and gave some knowing looks to the boys and they all looked at harry for some reason

"um! okay! Harry's love of life is present here in between us" Louis said and various gasps left everyone's throats, and I wondered who it could be. and when I looked at harry, Zayn was whispering something in his ear, his color totally got fainted maybe he wasn't expecting Louis to make a cliffhanger leaving no choice to harry other than to reveal it

What is going on

"tell us already harry" Perrie squealed and everyone was teasing harry except the boys and Alex, and I guessed that she also knows about it, when I looked at Alex she chuckled awkwardly as if her breath was hitched in her throat for a while, something told me that she knows more than she's pretending right now, she was rubbing her hands constantly sitting next to me, before I could say anything to her the game was resumed

"guys! it was a question for me not for harry, so shall we continue with the game?" This time Louis stood up and went in the center to spin the bottle, and unluckily it stopped on Harry this time, and the contentment of everyone's joy of knowing the answer to their question was indescribable that moment, they were so sure that they will take it out of him

"sorry guys! I'm not gonna do it, I don't like this game" Harry stood up and was about to leave but Zayn stopped him holding his forearm making him sit down once again, cause he knew he had to do it this time, Harry couldn't even look in anyone's eyes that moment

"it is the right time Harry"

harry stood up, and remained there stunned for couple of seconds, frozen in his steps, and nodded after a few seconds, silently he looked on his feet

"okay! Harry come on, it's a dare" Liam said and harry raised his head

"I'm scared, I'm scared that I'll lose my friend, my partner,, I really don't know what your reaction will be but.." he was talking in the air and stopped, his voice was shivering

he indeed was really scared

I was curious, he looked into my eyes and he started walking slowly, as if his steps were heavy, the part of him wanted to go for it but most of him was terrified

"...but trust me..."he stopped before a little distance between us, and knelt down in front of me and held my both hands tightly, as if he was afraid to let go and my breath was hitched as my heart beat went faster, not knowing what to do

This can't be

"..I love you Jasmin, I want to grow old with you, I want to keep you safe in my arms and I want to let you know your worth, I'm saying what's in my heart" Harry was looking into my eyes, his eyes were pleading an answer when I was quiet, there was dead silence around us in the deep forest all I could hear that time was my heart beat in my ears. his eyes were worried as I couldn't uttered a word due the heaviness in my throat, disappointed, he looked down at my hands

"harry" I whispered as tears rolled down my cheeks and he looked back at me, a little hope in his green orbs shone, but all I could do was to whisper his name

"say yes Jasmin" Perrie squealed casually as if it's not a big deal to say yes, I blinked looking in Harry's eyes, he kissed at the top of my hands as I started trembling to give me strength just like he has given me every time I needed it

"please say something Jasmin" Alex placed her hand on my shoulder

"I need a moment, please!" wiping my tears off I stood up and went inside my camp, I was trembling with the unknown fear, fear of being again there when I was being proposed and happily engaged with Rayyan, or the fear of hurting Harry and losing him. I covered myself with the blanket inside the camp and threw myself on my side of the camp, and I could hear their voices clearly from outside

"leave her Alone Alex, she needs some time" Louis said when maybe she was about to come inside

"Harry No!!!" I heard Niall's worried voice and my nerves got worried

No!

"yeah! I lost her, I lost everything" Harry's painful rasp voice killed me thousand times inside, I wanted to go back to few minutes before and I wanted to change everything, I was in an unknown guilt, but I wasn't even sure how would I change everything

"get up harry, be strong" Zayn's voice was weak but I assumed that harry was crying on his knees and it killed me inside, I cried uncontrollably that time. because I was bewildered at the moment, as much as I cared for him I wasn't sure about my feelings, and I wasn't ready to hurt him or face the truth, all of sudden this trip was on a weird edge

"She just needs some time to think through" Louis said, maybe he was right, I needed time to absorb what just happened, and how long I've been ignoring the hints, we sure flirted with each other at times but I didn't know that he was in love with me, love with me

"She didn't say No" Niall heartened Harry

"Nor did she say Yes, I didn't want to force her into this, I never would!! But I don't want to lose her" Harry's voice was cracking up and all I wanted that moment was to hug him, kiss his forehead and never leave his hand.

But why

"There's nothing between you both, but a barrier, barrier of religion, otherwise you guys are made for each other" Liam said and there was silent couple of minutes which made me realize that it was the only reason of my state of bewildereness

"try to have some good sleep Harry" Perrie said in a low voice and after a few minutes Alex came inside I kept my face to her side laying down

"I thought you slept" Alex said trying to cover up everything that just happened, besides I could tell that she knew about all of this since beginning, I didn't say anything but I turned around to the other side, not in the mood to argue.

after a few minutes when Alex fell asleep I picked up her phone knowing that I am assuming right about her. when I slide into the gallery there was a separate folder saying my love birds, out of curiosity I clicked the folder it had just mine and Harry's pictures together, which I never knew existed, I unconsciously smiled when my sight fell on the picture when I fell asleep on harry's shoulder in the van, he was smiling while adjusting my head on his shoulder, there was a video too, in which harry was totally shy while everyone was teasing him, I quickly putted down her phone when she snorted in sleep

I was disappointed that why didn't even my best friend tell me about all of this, I peeked from inside my camp to look around outside, there was no one but Harry, sitting on the log alone, looking at the sky, his shoulders heavily hung low

what have I done to him, I should maybe talk to him. but why just harry didn't let me know before about this, for how long he's been hiding his secret, there is no match for both of us, I'm an ordinary girl, he's a famous celeb, and our religions do differ too, he said he respects me and I know he's the man of his words, I know he can't even think about hurting me, he's a beautiful soul. I didn't know what was keeping me from going to him