Truly Sincere [Part 1]

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Loving Harry was the righteous decision I'd ever made in my life, he brought me back to life, he made my life easier and he was always there for me when I needed someone to hold me, the traumas of my life felt lighter when Harry held my hand, he gave me respect and my honor back, he told me that loving is so easy, it takes little and gives more, I am healed with his love, I can never be more grateful to God, for Harry being in my life.

I was so moved to see him daringly take the possibilities in his hand for us to be only together for lifetime, it was my turn to not run away from my problems aka my parents and to face them. I already gave Harry, a sneak peek of how unpredictable my parents can be, he trusted me. Seeing his family being so supportive of his decision I dared myself to take a step and just don't be scared.

I arranged a meeting with my parents next week when Harry took this big step, a week was enough for us to get prepared to meet them and at the same time it wasn't enough.

On the day of the meeting Harry and I arrived at the café for coffee earlier than the meeting time, I knew Harry was so nervous and so was I, I kept the image of all the worst possibilities in my mind and for the outcome I knew there's only one side for me, that is Harry's

"I'd say don't be nervous, but I know them, they'll take out on us" I said holding Harry's forearm as he was looking outside the café's window

"But they're family Jas" he looked into my eyes and it hit me in the chest

"I am by your side no matter what" I said and he looked at me

"What bad can happen? They'll lash out on us? Or leave? Or worst they'll take you with them" Harry was fidgeting nervously

"You don't have to worry about anything, I'm telling you I'm by your side" I assured him holding his hand just then we spotted my parents in the parking lot of the café. As they entered I introduced them

"So what are the plans?" My father cheerfully asked in his usual delight tone and whereas my mother wasn't quite happy or satisfied with us, her deadly glares told another story we couldn't even hold hands in front of them because of her reaction

"We are working on the new album, Jas has might told you, and overall my plans are marrying your daughter sir" Harry said politely and I slipped my hand into Harry's despite of how my mother raised her eyebrow at me I didn't bother to look at her

"Well! ..."

"Well! I heard you turned Muslim, is that true" Before my father could say anything my mother cut in between, I noticed how his little smile was gone all at once, she supported her chin elegantly with her hand as she placed her elbow on the table

"Of course it is true mother, how could you expect us to lie about such thing" I frowned at her and she placed her finger on her lips to shush me. Harry's grip on my hand grew tighter and when I looked up at him he smiled at me delightfully to let me know, he got this

"Of course Mam, if that convinces you, I request you both Jasmin's hand for marriage" Harry nodded respectfully and a satisfactory smirk formed on my mothers lips as if she was waiting for this moment

"I'm not really convinced by you British boy that you're the right guy for my daughter" my mother played another card in order to torture me

"Mother! You're being disrespectful now" I said in a low voice and I looked down when waiter arrived with our orders

"And what about the dishonor of our family, you were all over the news Jasmin that you're dating some band boy" my father said sternly and I realized that I was dealing with a winning queen and her pawn in the play, of course my mother got to his brain

"What about my happiness Dad? My life has been manipulated by you both since my childhood and when I'm about to take a lifelong decision on my own, its all of sudden the dishonor of Rajputs" I blurted out in low voice, my father stayed quiet but my mother however was amusingly sipping on her coffee

"Jasmin, what do you know about lifelong decisions darling, you barely got yourself out of a long term engagement with Rayyan" she said in her not so honey dipped fake lovely voice

"I wasn't happy mother, what do you know about keeping other's happiness first other than manipulating them into your own play for the sake of your own happiness and your own satisfaction, he didn't grow up after all" I said through tears and Harry was constantly squeezing my hand to stop me but that was my capacity of holding back everything, I blurted out

"This band boy has gotten over your head, you never talked back to your mother like this" father yelled as he raised his voice at me

"Or you can say, I've never seen more better father" I answered and Harry didn't stop me now

"a few months with him has you so disrespectful of us, how can you expect us to be supportive of your decision" my mother said and a victorious smile arched on her lips

"Let's say mother, I made a mistake of expecting your support" I said through tears and I looked at her face, gathered up the courage to say one last thing

"You'll receive the invitations soon, this is happening despite of your happiness,...I'm sorry,... Good bye" I mumbled as I got up holding Harry's hand and left the café. I cried my heart out in car in Harry's embrace as he held me tightly.

There's no such a horror place than having a toxic relationship with your manipulative parents, this scars your whole life not just a few events, it affects the abilities in children for taking the lifelong decisions and actually being happy for it, you don't feel enough of yourself, despite of all the efforts you've made for your parents to make them happy, it will never be enough.