It's progress | tronnor

Party | part 1

Troyes pov:
The bell rang for the end of school and I ran out to the car. I was so excited for tonight.
"Someone seems excited." My mum said as I got into the car.
"Yeah I'm going to the party tonight remember," I said.
"Oh yeah that's right," she said turning on the car and driving out of the parking lot.
When we got home I raced inside and jumped into the shower straight away. I let the water run down through my hair and onto my face and then trickle down my back. Finally after 30 minutes I decided I should get out of the shower.

I stared at my wardrobe deciding on what I should wear. I decided on a plain light blue t-shirt, the sleeves rolled up with black skinny jeans and black high top converse. I was standing in front of the mirror fixing up my outfit and hair when I heard my phone vibrate. I instantly thought that it might be Connor and I jumped on my bed to grabbed my phone off my bedside table. I turned it on to see a text from an unknown person.

Unknown number ~ Hey I'm coming around to your house now so you better be ready when I get there.

I couldn't help but smile a little bit. I messaged back straight away.

Troye ~ Hey I'm assuming this is Connor and almost ready now so I'll come down as soon as you get here.

And almost instantly he messaged back.

Unknown number ~ Yes this is Connor and alright I'll see you soon.

Troye ~ Ok see ya soon.

I put my phone down and run to the bathroom to put on some cologne. I grabbed out my favourite cologne and sprayed it everywhere. While I was there I also cleaned my teeth before I went back into my room. I looked in the mirror for the millionth time when I heard a knock on the door. Thats Connor, I thought as I ran down the stairs to answer the door but I was too late, my mum had already answered the door.
"Hello," mum says.
"Hello Miss Sivan is Troye ready?" He said.
"Yes I am," I said as I got to the bottom of the stairs.
"Oh Troye I was just about to call you," mum says as I walk over and stand next to Connor. "So who's this?" She adds smiling suspiciously. I knew exactly what she was thinking and Connor didn't know about that yet. I mean I'll tell him that I'm gay soon but I've only just met him. 
"Mum this is my friend, Connor," I say putting my hand on his shoulder trying to hit that he was only my friend.
"Hello Connor it's very nice to meet you," she says putting her hand out for a hand shake. Connor lifts his hand up to shake hers.
"It's nice to meet you too miss Sivan," he says acting like a gentlemen.
"Oh honey just Laurel." She said smiling a big smile. I just rolled my eyes.
"Ok mum we have to go I'll talk to you when I get home," I said quickly, pushing Connor out the door.
"Ok well have fun tonight boys and don't be to late home," mum said as we were walking to the car.
"Ok bye mum," I yelled from the car.
"Bye," yelled Connor. As we got into the car Connor says "Your mum seems really nice."
"Yeah I guess shes nice sometimes," I said. And with that he started the car.

On the way to the party we sat in silence and I thought about what my mum was implying. I hadn't told anyone in this town that I was gay yet as I have only been here for a few days. Should I tell someone? But what if it's too soon? Should I tell someone before I slip up and have to explain? I should tell someone tonight... But not Connor, not yet. I don't want someone who has been so nice to me react badly. I don't want him to think that I was coming on to him, like someone at my old school said I did.

*Flashback*
It was Thursday afternoon after school and I had just asked Jason if he wanted to go down town. He was the next person on my list, after Georgia and my family, to come out to. He was a really good friend of mine and I thought he should know. So we went and got some pizza before going to the park. We sat in the park eating pizza and talking about pretty much anything that came into our minds. I kept putting off what I wanted to say as I was scared of his reaction. Finally when we finished the pizzas I had enough courage to tell him.
"Jason..." I say suddenly after an awkward silence.
"Yeah?" He said looking at me.
"I need to tell you something," I say preparing myself.
"Ok what's up?" He said looking concerned.
"I'm... I'm... Gay." I said finally. I felt the height lift off my shoulders. I felt so much better that I had told him. I watched as his facial expressions changed from confused to surprised to disgust. And that's when the good feeling disappeared.
"Ew you fag!" he yelled. I expecting bad reactions from people but I thought he would understand.
"Wait what?" I said confusingly.
"Get away from me!" He yelled again getting up from sitting next to me and walking towards the entrance of the park. I just sat there, tears filling my eyes. I didn't know how I felt, anger? Sadness? Frustration? I didn't even know anymore. And with that I got up and walked home, crying.
The next morning I went to school. Everyone looked at me and whispered to the person next to them as I walked past. I felt a sick feeling at the pit of my stomach.
"Oi fag!" I heard someone say from behind me. I tensed up before I turned around to find Jason with a group of guys. "Heard you were trying to come onto Jason yesterday, not cool man," he laughed as did the rest of the group, except Jason who looked guilty.
"Th-that's not wh-what happened," I
stuttered.
"That's not what we heard," he laughed. I didn't say anything as I felt like if I said anything I would cry. I looked at Jason and shook my head before walking fast down the hall to find Georgia. As soon as I found Georgia I collapsed into her arms and started crying.
That was the start of my bullying days.
*End flashback*

But who would I tell? I don't really know anyone and Connor is the closest person I know.
"Are you ok?" I heard Connor say pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Oh yeah fine just thinking," I replied quickly.
"Oh ok was just worried as you haven't said anything the whole trip." He said worryingly.
I hesitated "No I'm fine," I said with a reassuring smile. He smiled back.
"So are you excited for tonight?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'm so happy you invited me."
"No problem you're with us now."

We arrived at a beautiful house lit up from the inside. There were many pretty flowers out the front making it welcoming. A few trees hung over the front of the house framing the entrance. Loud music was blaring from inside.
I stepped out of the car while Connor came around from his side. He stood next to me and looked at me.
"You ready?" He asked with a huge smile.
"Let's do this," I said returning the smile. We walked towards the house hearing laughter and defining music. Connor went in front of me and opened the door. We entered the house and I stopped. The music blasted through the whole house and there were so many people here. From where I was standing I could see people in the kitchen playing beer bong, people in the lounge room making out and people outside dancing. I looked around to see where Connor was but he was gone. I was left at the door by myself. I didn't know anyone here and Connor just left me. How could he just do that to me. I should just leave and pretend I never came I thought. Just as I was about to leave I felt a hand grab mine and pull me into the crowd.
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More of this chapter coming soon kiddos xx