Taming Yue

Chapter 18

Louraine

"I really like you Raine." Ian said while we're eating pasta.

Muntikan pa akong mahirinan dahil sa bigla bigla niyang pagsabi. Nanlalaki ang matang tinitigan ko siya.

"Are you serious?" I asked him. Inaasahan ko na biglang manliliit ang nata niya atsaka tatawa pero wala.

Seryoso talaga siya.

"I...I-Ian ano...kasi, hindi ko alam ang dapat kon-"

"Sshh, I just confessed. Wag kang panira. Hindi ko naman sinabi na ie-entertain ko ang nararamdaman ko. Besides, I can't do that. I'm a professor." He said then continued to eat.

He invited me to go eat out. Dapat ay kasama namin si Hazel pero bigla itong umalis ng walang paalam.

Nakahinga naman ako ng maluwag. Wala naman akong problema kung gusto niya ako. Medyo sanay na ako kasi madami ding nagtangka bago ko pa man nakilala si Yuean.

Yuean. Siya nanaman.

"You're not so hard to like, Raine. But I would be glad if we remain as friends. Baka kasi bigla kang mang-snob. Mahu-hurt ako non." Aniya at hinawakan pa ang dibdib na para bang nasasaktan talaga. Natawa naman ako sa inarte niya.

Nagugulat parin talaga ako sa mga pinapakita niya sa aking iba't ibang sides. He's funny and random lalo na sa jokes at stories niya. Sometines  he's serious lalo na sa pagpili ng chocolates. Ewan. Ang weird niya din outside university.

"Ian, can I...share...nothing." I said then went back to eating.

It'll be rude of me if I ask about Yuean when he likes me. Bakit ba hindi ko agad naisip yon?

"What? C'mon. Maybe I can help." He insisted. Nagdalawang isip pa ako. Maybe if I tell him, baka mawalan siya ng pag-asa at mawala ang feelings niya.

"What would you do if you miss a person?" I asked him.

It's been three weeks since he's gone. I ignored the anger deep inside me because...I...I just...really miss him.

"It's Yue right?" He said. I saw a sudden pain in his eyes that faded away. "Text him. Send him a message. Call him. There's so many ways." He said.

"P-pero...nakakahiya kasi kapag ako ang unang mag-send ng message." Ani ko at nilapag ang kutsara.

"Raine. It's the 21st century. It's fine. If you really miss him, then make an effort." He said and finished his food.

We've been hanging out too since busy talaga si Hazel tsaka nasa Spain si Charles. One time Hyde and Syc invited him to their baking lessons made by me. They became friends agad agad.

We hang out often starting then. Me, Ian, Hyde and Syc, minsan kasama pa namin si Luke and Hazel pag nay chance talaga.

It's been that long. Ang daming nangyari. Ang daming nagbago.

But my feelings never did.

"Maybe I'll message him later. Salamat talaga Ian. You're a wonderful person. Maybe if I didn't meet Yuean..." I didn't got the chance to continue since he held my hand reassuring me that he's fine.

"A guy liking a girl without any feelings in return...well yeah it hurts, but don't yah worry. I'll be fine soon. Sana lang hindi ka niya balewalain." Aniya at napangiti naman ako sa sinabi niya.

"Sana nga." Ang tanging nasabi ko.

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Hi Yuean! Kamusta ka na? It's been three weeks, paramdam ka naman.