Andley OneShots ✔

I Won't Quit

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Ashley

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I still miss him. I still love him. I can't get him out of my head. 

It's only been a month since the whole divorce and I'm more of a mess than I was before. Loosing that baby, I feel like I lost myself. I put Andy through hell...I put myself through hell. I would always get into arguments with Andy, accuse him of cheating all the time and there were times where I didn't feel like talking to him. I even blame him that we couldn't have the child. How fucked up am I? I would understand if he never wanted to see me again, but I need to see him again. I still love him. I didn't want things to turn out this way at all.

Surprisingly Andy still had his Instagram and I saw he was somewhere in Florida. Orlando to be more specific. I got his address from the guys and next thing I knew I was on a plane. 

I now stood in front of his house. I felt my heart racing. What is he gonna say when he see's me? Get angry? Kick me out? Does he have someone else already? So man questions in my mind and I was starting to get sick. I slowly managed to walk to the door and knock three times and waited. The door finally opened and I shut my eyes preparing for the worst.

"A-Ash?" I lifted m head and saw Andy's shocked face. Those blue eyes. Those blue eyes I missed so much.

"Um...Hey-"

"What are you doing here?"

"I uh....I know you probably don't want to see me but I need to see you...I miss you...us and our life that we had."

"...I....I don't know Ash..."

"So you really wanna just quit on this?" I asked not looking at him. He said nothing.

"....Yes."

"But And-"

"Look Ash, I do love you...but this...all this can't be helped anymore."

"Please..."

"I'm sorry.." he was about to close the door but I stopped him. "Andy.....don't do this...don't quit on me....quit on us."

"After everything that's happened with us...."

"I know....but I wanna have faith in this. Faith in us....you really wanna just throw it all away?"

"It's not like I don't!"

"Then let's be together again!"

"It's not that simple!"

"What do you mean?"

"We can't just be together again and act like nothing happened." he sighed and looked at my bags. "Come inside." he grabbed my bags and I followed him in. It was cozy here. Andy sure know.s how to pick 'em.

"So are we gonna talk about this or not?" Andy's voice rings in my ears making me look him in the eyes. 

"Yes. Andy, I love you. You love me still as well I know it."

"Of course I love you. I've always had and I always will....but lately...things between us aren't clicking anymore. The baby-"

"Don't." I held up a hand. I didn't wanna discuss the baby part yet.

"Not that..."

"Why? we have to? this whole thing started because of that. Ash, did you even think of me...how I would feel about all this? you just locked yourself way from me, accused me of cheating and blamed me for the lost."

I couldn't even look at him because he was right. I am an ass. My lip quivers and I lost it. I was full on crying. 

"I'm sorry Andy...I'm so sorry...I didn't once think about that. I wanted us to be a family..and everything just went in a different way. I felt like I lost myself..or I did lose myself after that experience. I didn't mean to just shut you out like that but when something like that happens to you...how do you act? What do you do? What do you say to people? How can you overcome that?" I was pulled into Andy's arms and felt him pet my hair while I weep. I even felt droplets fall onto my hair. 

"I know.."

"So where do we go from here?" I asked after a good 10 minutes of silence. And was silent for  while but spoke.

"I think we should start from the beginning..start from the bottom and start slow for now. I'm starting to regret quitting so soon. I now realize I can't quit. I can't."

I nodded and laid my head on his chest.

"I love you."

"I love you too."