trigger warning for mentions of suicide attempts.
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december 31st, 2016
mikey: pete
pete: hi
mikey: i've been wondering something since the party it's kind of bugging me
mikey: pete can i ask you something?
pete: sure just ask
mikey: can u tell me about what bert meant with the better spirits comment i mean it's fine if u don't want to but i'm just wondering
mikey: i care a lot prob too much and?? ugh
pete: oh
pete: yea i'll tell u
pete: ur my best friend you deserve to know
mikey: alright
pete: it was like last year and i was talking with this guy. we were just at this show at a bar that i brought my fake id for and we started talking and then he bought me a drink and shit and me being young and dumb was like hell yea free booze wooooo
mikey: pete
pete: anyways don't even know what happened but all i know is suddenly ended up in his van and he was being creepy and suddenly fuckin bert literally pops out of nowhere and starts beating the shit out of him
pete: i got date raped. i didn't remember passing out but i kept ending up in different places every time my head stopped being weird and i could barely move
pete: it was really bad
mikey: pete
mikey: oh my god pete
pete: its ok. it's in the past now
pete: anyway, bert got me and took me back to his house and let me rest up there because my parents would murder me if they found out i was out drinking with a fake id
pete: i ended up talking to bert a lot those three days and he helped me sort out a lot of shit in my head he was like my mini therapist lol
mikey: that was nice of him
pete: i'm thankful for him
pete: so thankful you don't even know. bert said he knew the guy & he always did that shit to young boys and he saw him walk out with me and he knew he had to step in and stop ignoring the rumors he heard
mikey: fuck. pete, fuck.
pete: mikey, i know you've known bert longer than me and you probably have more of an opinion on him but those days.. fuck. unless bert does really awful shit i'm always defending him.
mikey: i would aswell..
mikey: sorry if i'm not reacting as much as i should... i'm kinda just like ... idk
pete: it's ok
pete; honestly that was my wake up call to quit my shit
pete: i ended up swallowing like ten ativan the next weekend bc i felt like utter shit and i really wanted to die
pete: oh fuck i didn't mean to keep talking
mikey: pete.....
pete: like i said, i'm better. i was really low at that point. patrick was mad at me, brendon wasn't speaking to me, i had never felt more empty in my life and i really thought things were never gonna get better
mikey: how old were you..?
pete: 15.
mikey: holy fuck.
mikey: pete, don't ever do that. even if we grow apart or get into a fight or something, talk to me. holy fuck. pete.
pete: i'm sorry mikey
mikey: why are you apologizing?
pete: for turning this about myself
mikey: no. don't apologize. i asked.
pete: i have so much to live for. i have great friends and you.
mikey: me?
pete: yes. you. you're so great.
pete: i'm still sad. nothing can fix that. but i know now that life is worth living. if i died, i would never have met you. and ur pretty cool. i know it's toxic to act like a specific person is keeping me alive and shit but literally i'm so glad i got to meet you mikey way and i'm really glad i fucked up on dying bc i'm so glad to be alive right now
mikey: pete oh my god i'm actually crying
pete: thank you so much mikey. i gotta go, my mom wants to go to dinner for new year's eve. you should come over to mine later to watch the ball drop.
mikey; i would like that :)
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a lot of inspiration for this chapter came from personal experience. this year, i lost my childhood best friend to suicide. i was friends with him for 8 years. he moved to the neighboring city and i wasn't really talking to him as much. i would comment on his snapchat stories and that was our friendship. i'm about to go out to dinner one day and find out he shot himself. he was fourteen. we were supposed to grow old together. we're not supposed to die at 14 years old. i miss him so much, i can't even explain to anyone. please message me if you need it. please. i love you all.
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