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july 13th, 2017

pete, ryan, gabe, travie, william, alex

ryan: can i talk to u guys for a second i'm in a mood

ryan: i know y'all don't have as much mental anguish going on right now as the others atleast visibly so i'd might as well ask for advice from ppl that aren't dealing with enough bullshit right now

ryan: should i add patrick i never know if he's okay or not

pete: don't

pete: he doesn't talk much but

ryan: ok good judgement call then ryan

travie: what's up ryan

ryan: it's about brendon...

alex: what's he doin now

pete: oh no

ryan: nonono nothing bad! he's sooo much healthier and... maybe happier? fuck i can't say that but he's doing so much better

ryan: it's nothing of major importance tbh but i just

travie: what's up ryro

pete: ye ryan whatever it is important enough to message us outside the gc for

ryan: sigh

ryan: idk i wanna forgive brendon and i'm trying to but i can't

ryan: i try to so bad

ryan: but he hurt me so much ffhsh idk

alex: oh ryan :(

ryan: it's dumb it's been such a long ass time hell its SUMMER and this shit happened in january

ryan: it's been a month and a half since he came crying to my doorstep and i try believe me i do but it's so hard

ryan: i think i like him still like... like like

travie: omg ryan

ryan: but how am i gonna like like someone that i haven't  forgiven completely

gabe: ryan idk what to say to that

pete: :(

gabe: do u think he'll do it again is the real question

ryan: i honestly don't know

ryan: he's cutting down considerably like last i knew he was still using but little by little just so he didn't get horrible withdrawals or whatnot but that's it

ryan: well we've smoking a lot of weed together bc that helps too just so he's not using

ryan: i don't ask if he is or not which i probably should be doing