The Outcast

Chap 28

Johnny made me stay in bed the rest of the day I actually liked it being served hand and foot. I was getting bored and fidgety as well I took in a deep breath then let out a loud scream hiding under the covers as footsteps quickly rushed up stairs "Gloria what's wrong" Johnny-cakes busted through the door I peaked out from under the covers "I'm booored" I groaned Johnny shook his head relief washed over his face "Fine" He helped me down stairs "AYYYY GLORIA DOLL" a drunk two slurred I let out a chuckle "Gloria may I have a word?" Darry stood at the kitchen door I shrugged then entered the kitchen he followed closing the door behind him "I know what you and the Shepherds got Pony to do" He said sternly I rubbed my side gently " Ease up he's a kid let him be one you probably did dumb shit as well" I said looking at him he stood quietly "Gotta give the kid some space" I walked out the kitchen letting Darry think about that Two was hugging Steve of course Steve didn't want to, Soda was talking to Pony and Johnny "Where Dally the Dick?" I asked they shrugged their shoulders "What happened to you anyway?" Soda asked raising his eyebrows "Me and Tim got into a fight then my rib popped out so I pushed it back in and Tim brought me back here where Johnnycakes patched me up" I smiled my left eye went blurry again I began rubbing it to see if that helped but it didn't "Tim hit a girl?" Soda frowned I hate it when people say that's it's so dumb "Don't treat me different because of my gender" I growled I shut my eye considering I couldn't see out of it now "sorry..." Soda apologised "What's up with eye?" Two slurred than began doing a pirate impression "Tim landed a punch on me there and haven't been able see straight since" I complained trying not laugh as Two hopped about. "You should go to the hospital" Darry said I rolled my working eye "Didn't go when my rib was poking out my body ain't going for an eye" I sighed sitting on the couch I grabbed Pony's smoke out of hand taking a few puffs instantly feeling more relaxed "Cheers" I handed him the cigarette back I opened my left eye again everything was blurry but at least I wasn't blind "Wait if you can't see out your left" Johnny trailed everyone but me must of thought of the same thing "That mean you won't be able fight" Darry finished I jumped up spinning around to face him "How so?" I stomped my foot down "Cause it can be used against you, if Someone finds out you can't see out of your left eye" Steve stated I realised he was right "Ima kill That Shepard" I yelled my side started hurt making me double over "You're not in shape Gloria sit down" Johnny tried calm me down I shook with rage "I'll be useless. I'll be a liability" my hands turned into fists my eyes looking down at the ground "Gloria don't think like that" Soda said defensively I glanced up at him I couldn't even see that far with my left eye "Why cause it's true you all know that!" I kicked the couch I was breathing heavily "IM AN EVERETT I WILL NOT BE USELESS!" I yelled on the top of my lungs flipping the table knocking everything off it drinks spilling onto the wood floor and rug "IM A FUCKING EVERETT" I bawled tears started pour out. All the emotions I've tried keep bottled up now poured out I couldn't describe my emotions. "Gloria" Pony said softly I wiped away the tears but they kept coming "Look Gloria I admire you a lot you know?" I shook my head squinting at Pony he gave me a meek smile "You've lost so much but yet you're still strong and tough ya know?" He said I let out a dry laugh "I'm not tough..." I replied "you are toughest girl I've ever known" He argued I frowned "Pony there's a difference I'm just scared as hell that's all" I said quietly fiddling with my thumbs "Scared but you-" I cut him off "Like a scared animal when it's cornered, It lashes out" I bit my lip "I'm Scared I'll die too young 16 years ain't enough you know? I don't want end up like my dad or mum" I cried Johnny sat beside me hugging my and rubbing my back "I know I won't live a full life" I cried into his shoulder "You know I used to talk a lot about killing myself" Johnny said quietly glancing at Two-Bit who looked away "I've never been out of Tulsa before, The gang is really what kept me going" He said I started calm down I felt pathetic crying like this, "thanks" I mumbled he smiled I sat up sniffling.

The next day when I woke up I went rub the sleet out my eyes but instantly flinched when I touched my left eye. Quickly going to the bathroom I gasped my left eye was bloodied "Jeeeeessus" I groaned the Sclera part of my was completely red my vision was still a little blurry but it was better just looked worse.